I don’t like to tell my parents or friends about the things I see and hear…I don’t want to scare them or make them scared of me. Does anyone else feel like this?
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It was my deepest darkest secret for years.
I still never tell anyone ever except this secret place.
Make sure you tell your pdoc though.
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Understandable. One of my best friends kind of ran away from me when I told him I had a psychotic break… he was at his first year of college and having fun and there i was sharing a depressing story with him.It’s just the way people are.
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I’m so sorry to hear that. My little sister is scared of me
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My older sister just didn’t know how to help me. So she stayed away and ignored my suffering. It’s cool though, we’re tight.
Keep going @roketdog …
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Same. My sister ignored me, never helped me with anything, put pics of me on her Facebook with the caption “weirdest kid ever”…that was about the time I got into drugs. It’s ok though we’re cool now.
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I refused to tell anyone except pdocs, but just recently I told my boyfriend… I’m sure he thought it was a joke. It turned into a whole big thing and now I don’t share anything with him or anyone else. I find it’s easier for me this way.
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I don’t tell anyone either. Hardly tell my nurse, psychologist or pdoc.
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I told my mom when I was in high school about the voices I was hearing and the demons. I told her that I was scared and needed help. She looked scared herself and confused. She said “I always thought you could take care of yourself”. And we never talked about it again. And I never told anyone else for almost thirty years. I was treated for depression, Bulimia, and anxiety, but not even therapists and doctors knew. Now, I wish I could tell everyone in some way that wouldn’t freak them out. I’ve told two of my sisters and a brother about some of it and it was visibly difficult for them to hear. I have spent the vast majority of my life keeping secrets, but now that I would tell I don’t feel that I can.
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I only tell people who understand and can help. I tell the people here, my friends here, because they know how to deal with it. It’s important to talk about it, but to people who understand it. Telling the ‘wrong’ people can make things worse.
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When I told my brother and sister what I thought was going on with me they dismissed it as delusional. I guess that by all standards of perceiving reality they were right, but still, damnit, that was what was happening.
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I’m sorry about that. Thank you @Nomad take it easy.
Btw I love Golden State too 
That’s terrible that she would do that. My sister thinks she’s going to hurt her because I’m surrounded by all the demons. I would never do that though.
It’s important to tell the pdocs though, @Comatose and @hedgehog. they’re the ones who can help you.
what do you see, and hear?
Mostly scary things @Daze. It changes with my mood though. The medication I’m on right now is helping a lot but I see animals, letters, faces in the trees and walls, I see creepy looking men when i get paranoid. One time i saw a group of people huddled in the corner with sheets over them, whispering. That one really messed me up, i still get scared thinking about it. I hear a lot of different voices, sometimes commanding, sometimes arguing with each other or just flat out calling me stupid. Sometimes they tell me to hurt people. That’s the worst
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thanks for sharing, wasn’t sure if you wanted to.
Mine are like shadows, people walking away, but I’m sure what I saw.
Anyway, yeah, stay on the meds.
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I just dropped to my mom everything I experience but I don’t go into great detail. Not so much because I’m worried of scaring her but because I don’t want to upset her any more than I already have. Like I don’t think she ever needs to know I had hallucinations of being raped and tortured. It’s not necessary.
I will try. But it is hard.
I’ve read Some parents may get it and read all about it and become an advocate for you.
Some parents may never understand and actually cause more problems,
People in real life will never understand. Maybe a doctor may have read about it. But they will never know how it really feels.
Even after you think you know someone for years, telling them may change your relationship forever. Or they may laugh it off and think you are kidding.
People are all very different and I avoided them for years until i got too lonley.
I try to relate to people through hobbies, current events , movies, etc.
Talking about feelings is just too hard and I’ve been hurt enough. I keep them to myself and God.
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