I feel like this image of how to adult is very accurate. Especially point 4 and 5.
I don’t like having to be an adult, and I don’t like the constant doubt of everything I do. I mean, I know as an adult, I sometimes have to do things I don’t really want to and such, but I wish it didn’t involve questioning my motives for everything, and whether or not I’m slowly becoming a puppet.
Don’t let the existential dread set in. Don’t let it set in.
Sometimes I do worry I have made terrible decisions and my life is compromised as a result.
I also do get these fits where I feel very uncomfortable and my hands get kinda sweaty.
Also at times I feel life might be pointless due to my sexual side effects. Although I could still potentially find an asexual partner. Those sexual problems are the main motivator I have to quit cigarettes(although I have been failing). I’m really hoping quiting can help the problem. Then I worry the damage may be permenent and the dread comes back.
I just keep busy and that typically helps . I hope my post wasn’t t.m.i