I was reading a thread earlier about how different people hear voices and found one person who sounded EXACTLY like what I have but sadly cannot find the thread again Itās very hard trying to figure all of this out at the moment because I cant quite grasp what is going on in my head. I will be recieveing a DX next week and Iām scared it will be schizophrenia as I have extreme paranoia and delusional thinking etc etc.
However, when the Psych asked me if I hear voices I said yesā¦ but im not sure if i do now. I have had definite auditory hallucinations in the past (clearly coming from outside my head) but at the moment it is internal and Iām w2ondering if anyone has a similar experienceā¦ So, I sometimes have a running commentary āāā¦sheās brushing her hairā¦āā etc (really annoying), or a different voice that tells me to hurt myself. Then theres other voices that just say random annoying ā ā ā ā , like the word āblueā out of nowhere. The thing is though, these voices, I hear in my own voiceā¦ Itās like someone else saying something to me (i.e not my thought) but in my own voice or sometimes in my voice but slightly different. Does anyone else have this?
It can be extremely confusing for me to tell if these are actually just things that Iām thinking subconciously and then saying to myself because I also have intrusive thoughtsā¦ The way I tell the difference though, is that my intrusive thoughts are usually disturbing flashing images and very fast. When the voices happen though, I generally do not recognise the thought as being mineā¦ Does that make any sense? Does anyone else have this? Can this be classified as a hallucination?
Well, research into psychotic disorders (including schizophrenia) seems to be revealing more and more that there are multiple different issues going on that have all been labeled under the same umbrella. Hearing voices in oneās own mind or like loud, separate thoughts, and then hearing voices as sounds outside of oneās ears, are obviously two different experiences, but both have been considered āhearing voicesā by many professionals, and both have been described as āhallucinationsā and both have been considered symptoms of āschizophreniaā which has been a big umbrella term for many possible symptoms.
But at the end of the day, all of it is coming from the brain organ. As far as what parts of the brain, how it is working on a very fine-details level, and so on, I imagine that as time and research goes on, we will see more distinguished issues being identified. For now a lot of it is a more straightforward, pragmatic approach, i.e. āAre these experiences abnormal? Are they causing you distress? Are they making it difficult for you to function in your daily life? What can we try in regards to treatment to help you with this problem?ā
Thank you so much for your replies! It was really helpful to have another point of view. I have since been seen by 3 psychologists and refferred to the Early intervention team for a full assesment. This is being labelled as my āfirst episodeā. All dawnting but glad im getting help sooner rather than later!
Yeah itās not technically hearing voices, itās called thought insertion and many people w psychosis experience it. Itās like there are thoughts in your head that donāt come from youā¦so you confuse it as someone else talking to you. All my voices talk telepathically as well.
As long as there are no visual and auditory distortion, and product of that people harm themselves and others. Internal debate is just a part of having intellect.
Real observations should be madeā¦ I know a lot people like to diagnose themselves often, but there are very specifics parameters to follow when diagnosing someone with schizophrenia.
It seems like you had some of that unpleasant experience. Having a notes about all whatās going on is good idea.
āHey you in my mind, say some ā ā ā ā .ā I say to them.
āOkay. What would you like me to say anyway? How about what we were talking with you about earlier? About how your entire planet is enslaved right now and nothing is going very well for humans or animals? About how your money systems are being used to control all of you and kill everyone basically? What would you like me to talk about?ā They say in my mind, not auditorily but to my mindās senses.
āYes, that will do, this person doesnāt know what itās like.ā I answer.
āItās just like talking to anyone else. Your brain hears/senses it and you have a reaction to it. But with this you canāt visually see them, thatās all that it is, but yeah we are speaking to these people and believe it or not we talk to all of you sometimes without you knowing.ā They say.
So just to give you an idea of whatās itās like right now; Iāve just been awake practically all night with the voice being CONSTANT! I would fall into a state of half sleep for a short only to wake up and hear it talking away. Not sure if it was waking me up or if I was just waking up but needless to say I havenāt slept and my ears are ringing like Iāve been listening to loud music all night.
When it gets bad like that the voice/voices donāt stop until I do what they want me to do i.e wake up and make the room light so I can be on the look out for anything coming. It kept talking about āgreysā all night which got me freaked! Also my boyfriend said at 4.30 I woke up and turned the light on which I do not remember doing at all and I never do stuff like that usually.
I hate this, how do you guys deal?!!!
P.s do you get images flashing through your mind as well? Or is that just me imagining stuffā¦ hhhhmmmm
Thanks for sharing that! Thatās kind of what itās like for me except I donāt really talk to mine, they usually just comment on what Iām thinking a lot and talk to each other which can get really noisy! Do you have more than one voice?
Itās very hard trying to figure all of this out at the moment because I cant quite grasp what is going on in my head. I will be recieveing a DX next week and Iām scared it will be schizophrenia as I have extreme paranoia and delusional thinking etc etc.