For the first time in a long time when I went to walmart, I wasn’t looking behind me when I passed every isle. Before I always felt like someone or some force was following me around when I went out in public but not once today did I look behind me. Didn’t hear any voices either. I also looked at the cashier in the eye and didn’t feel any anxiety from that like I did before. When before I’d just hand the money and look away and say “thanks, have a nice day”
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Good for you. Hopefully it lasts and makes your trips to stores more bearable.
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I think that paranoia can lessen, it has for me. I think it depends on which meds you are on - or how stressed out you are,
Stress can trigger paranoid feelings in schizophrenics and those living with bipolar etc…
Lately I am less paranoid, but it also depends on my depression - depression can also trigger paranoia in me.
Glad to know you had a paranoid free day - sometimes certain meds can trigger paranoia, Abilify did this to me.
This could just be the beginning for you - maybe there will be more paranoid free days up ahead for you! 
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Great! Hope there are more of these days ahead!
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Congratulations on this as well… first the shower then the busy store.
I know it sounds small… but I know what a big step this is. You’re doing great.
As far as the paranoia lessening… for me it’s like the tide… some days it’s high, and some days it’s so low I don’t even notice it.
Keeping other things in check does help the paranoia fade as well… keeping the stress low… being well rested… trying to better organize my life… this also helps me have the strength to combat the paranoia.
Good luck and I hope that today is better then yesterday and tomorrow will be better then today.
Well, you can understand a lot of people deal with part-time psychosis by following orders from the voices called gang stalking/cause stalking/thought broadcasting. A Google of this is hugely helpful to know how some will act…I REFUSE TO DO FOLLOW ORDERS FROM VOICES. The people following orders from voices are tortured into doing worse and end up as jail bait who cannot hold down a job.
Mental care refuses to discuss this calling it delusional. Result, the confused go insane. If you know this, you are better off. Also understand, if you get angry with the mental care you can be forcible mental hospitalized at your own expense for as long as the doctors can justify. Employment loss or homelessness do result.
In short, eventually I hope you do not feel the need to discuss any of the ‘displays’ of gang stalking/verbal harassment of adults you see except inquiring of anything happening at work until you have deemed a coworker a kook. See #8 below. Repeating the stories is just letting it own you as you repeat the story…Not discussing any of it or responding (except at work from coworkers) will reduce amount of time you suffer if you do not talk to self aloud, cut ties with anyone who causes the voices to start for you and refuse to follow orders. Go back to work when you can if you had employment problems and things have gotten better…Community treats most people better if they try to work.
After work problems, worst people you will meet are the car repair guys. Crook crook crook!!! They target people too at some repair places. Just love having car sitting in a puddle of anti-freeze 3 times after oil change at LOCAL dealer. I wish I still had the family member mechanic but he is too old now! Some new cars are sold off the lot mess-with-able described here as a car that stops timed with voices. Bad car dealers/servicers hit it all so be willing to drive a long ways for better new cars… Work on your own cars…Spend bucks few times for jacks, ramps, wrenches will save you from some of the hell. Family friend drove a truck to 90k without changing anything, just top all the fluids, and it kept going so… Other poor family with 3 sick children had to give up owning cars in one city, the local crooks left them stranded over and over. At least the place had good bus service.
Paranoia:
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You may find out about every POS in your community and all the good people. Take your business to the good ones. But, do know that some unfit hide in churches and will give you passive aggressive recommendations for any kind of contractor/business recommendations…people get screwed by the churchs’ folks too.
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Some pastors will even tell their folks gang stalking is okay because the money from the unfit businessmen elders is more important than any ethics in that book…You learn which churches house the angry and questionables. Some churches are checking wallets of all who turn there for relief, running you through like a healing circus side show and throwing people back onto streets to even be harassed by church members while you are at work.
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The gang stalkers/aggressives/POS business people in new communities will look you up when you move, just count on it city or country.
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Ownership of nice possessions is huge liability and possibility to be ruined financially by everyday US problems without any legal recourse due to vandalisms. Live conservatively without much flash to be okay. Keep it in the bank.
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Some larger cities have so many ruined people who get nothing, you may be tormented badly for remaining ‘on the check’ from disability. It is the community tradition and taking good employment may not be a ‘right’, as some have been busted down to minimum wage from PhD educations.
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Colleges are housing a lot of unfit instructors who will mistreat people…getting your piece of paper online is advised. You can get screwed if you get loan or pell grant and school turns out to have too many problem people so pay cash for 2-3 classes first so you don’t regret it. Many classes are left so out of date and slopped through by instructors now, learn to self teach to get anywhere professionally.
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Some of the gang stalkers will take orders to date specific people so if you get someone who knows personal stuff about you or talks to you like a parrot of your internal thoughts too much, some of these are wife beaters, serial cheater or financial abuser.
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Troubled coworkers. I don’t know that it is even a good idea to answer a lot of the gang stalkers, strangers harassing you verbally about something private. I make only exception at work. A nut at work can ruin it…I hope you don’t work in this person’s workflow in a professional job. They are a take down artist sometimes. Look for work elsewhere as those who get fired or screwed out get unemployment denied. Carrying cell phone set to tape can reduce problems with some. Backing up files to your own flash drive is even a good idea if you work at police departments, so unfortunately.