I mean I feel useless. I have to live with my mom, she does not want me to help her and I don’t think I could. Due to APs caused anxiety and tremors I can’t hold a simple job like a barista. I sleep for 14 hours a day and If I don’t then I tend to lay in bed for all the day. Anhedonia is the worst, I don’t feel like playing video games, I don’t get a rush from winning a match like I used to. APs make me feel weak so I stopped working out and I’m fat like jelly now. I used to read a new thick book every week. Now it takes like half a year. I don’t want to find a girlfriend because I have ED. I have a lack of thought and slurred speech that I can’t hold a conversation with a stranger. Can anyone tell how I can live my life like this? What I am supposed to do besides sleeping and eating? When I was on low dose risperidone everything was fine, but my doc firmly says no to a reduction cause I am in very conservative country and SZ is heavily stigmatized here
I have problems with schizophrenia but different ones to you
Have you tried antidepressants
I am on escitalopram 10mg it only makes life bearable but don’t do anything else. I think APs block the real potential of an SSRI
What dose of risperidone are you on?
Have you told the doctors your problems
You didnt have positive symptoms on low dose risperidone? Could you get a second opinion?
I’m on 75mg Xeplion. So my body has around 7-4mg risperidone constantly. I felt so much better on 50mg or even 2 mg risperidone held a job actually. I have talked with my doctor but she refuses to lower the dose. In 2 weeks I am going to my doc with my mom to explain to her that my life is unbearable as my psy doc thinks I am still delusional which is not and lowering the dose will get me into psychosis. I think more likely what will happen my psydoc will offer TCA’s and I will refuse and go home. It’s been happening for a half a year like this
sometimes i do.
When I was on low dose I had a bit trouble sleeping but I was energetful and actually held a job. I think 50mg Xeplion would be great as in my body would be 4-2 mg of risperidone. I’ll try to negotiate again.
I had to go for higher dose of prozac ssri to feel more useful. I’m on 234mg of invega/xeplion
How do they give you the 75mg injection? Is it two injections?
have you tried being crative at all? it helps me when i feel alot emotions and cant fouces.
The problem is I have flat effect from risperidone. I don’t feel any highs or lows
I have anhedonia and no emotions due to my schizophrenia, I stay in bed most of the day doing nothing, so my life is fairly useless.
I don’t understand why it has to be this way!
These meds stop psychosis but they wipe away everything else!
I suffer with anhedonia, avolition and lethargy.
I basically do nothing but lounge about the house, lying on the couch.
My psychiatrist doesn’t know how to help me.
I find it sad that time is going by whilst I’m doing so little. I hope to change that a bit this upcoming year as my med dose goes lower
I felt sorry for myself for a long time when they gave the diagnosis of Schizophrenia. i was having a massive pity party.
But it explained all the wierd shite that i experienced - and with that label alone - it enabled me to label it and research for tools for recovery.
Im not useless anymore - ive just lowered my expectations. And i fight the anhedonia everyday. Ive come to accept that im gonna be on a depot jab the rest of my life - and that keeps me well.
I keep a relaxed attitude to my illness now. Yeah bad days / good days.
But im grateful for my stable housing and income - and more importantly my stable mind.
Sometimes you just gotta change your outlook on life - and accept it.
so in away numb to emotion?
I sincerely feel as though my life is useless. I am a lousy parent and partner. I don’t get out of bed, even to go get my own food. I have gained almost double my weight in a year and a half from sitting around doing nothing. I don’t know where it all went wrong. I had been doing so well. And now I’m nothing. A waste of space and air.
Yeah, I feel that my life is useless too. I’m just going out of the house if I have to. Tv runs all day long on low volume, I’m waiting twice a day for the nursing service, and other than that I have some rare appointments each month. Just smoking all day long and laying in bed. YouTube gives some relief sometines for a short moment. I rarely play games anymore, I have thrown away my two skateboards, my aggressive inline skates(years ago). I cancelled my gym subscription. Made some debt, which I can’t pay back.
Maybe I get a disability pension next year, but that is pretty rare to get at 32 years. I sometimes think of, if this life will stay till I die like that, and I think the answer is yes. My diabetes gets worse and worse, and I don’t care at all. I tried to change, just can’t stick to the change, always need to go back. I have no pleasures in life besides of eating, smoking, Tv and the internet.
I’m back since yesterday from my poland vacation. Bit too stressful. We were sixteen people at christmas. It was too much for me.