I wish that I could get off of all of my meds.
The side effects are just too much, but I can’t afford to do this or I will lose my mind.
I have no choice in the matter.
Off my meds I become a danger towards others and myself.
Anyways don’t feel forced to stay on meds, you were doing good even off meds, just try some different meds and decide with your family and pdoc if it is worth it…
I get scared to say the AP sucks in case it’s the illness but yes it’s possible at least regarding the hair that ap sucks regarding side effects.
But for me the thing is if I am off ap and start to hear voices that are manageable and still stay off ap it’s fine. BUT I have heard there is a tendancy for the hallucinate n delusions to get worse n that’s my concern when it becomes unbearable. Which I have experienced. Cos then quite some time may have passed n the longer it’s unmedicated the more difficult it is to treat n then I may have to go on an even Higher dose with possibly higher side effects. So this way may suck even more.
I need to doublecheck with my pdoc though if it’s true that there’s a tendancy for it to get worse n worse with time.wen off ap.
The side effects are worth it for some people and not worth it for others. That’s the reality. If you need it, then you need it. The problem is some doctors and other people are not willing to admit it’s not worth it for some people.
I watched my physical health completely deteriorate because of the meds. And for what? So I could hold a shitty job that my family doesn’t need to survive? That was the only benefit for me. It wasn’t worth it for me. I definitely feel like I poisoned myself.
For me, the choice is either give up antipsychotics and spend 80% of my life in a trance arguing with my voices, or accept the side effects and get what remains of my life back.
As far as feeling like crap, ever since I’ve started drinking a gallon of ionized, 9.5 pH water a day, my head has been hurting less and less daily. When I started, my head pain was a 7.5, and now, little more than a month later, my pain fluctuates between a 1 and a 3. I had that pain for 3 years even, and had been to a hospital three times for it!
Life is starting to get good, horizons are opening up again.
If I’ve learned anything from going to many doctors about various problems, it’s that all doctors are not equal. There are great doctors, and there are bad doctors, and a lot in between. Young doctors still need to get a grip on things. She may have a god complex right now thinking she’s the smartest person in the room, but she’ll find out through experience that things are more complex in the real world.