I accept the concept of “normies” even if it’s a little derogatory. Some people live an extraordinarily simple life with very common problems, and can’t understand people who deviate just a little to common standards of living and thinking.
The good thing is - I think there are approximately just as many deviants as normies. The boundaries are blurred… so - just thinking - i don’t quite know if the concept makes sense after all. Anyway it’s very easy to find people who accept you, and your deviant way of thinking.
But if I meet a prototypical normie I can recognize him or her. No doubt.
I have unusual beliefs that the U.S. will be destroyed by earthquakes because I watched some YouTube videos of a so called prophet saying that would happen. It makes me not want to work or really do anything because I feel like what’s the point if it could all end any time now?
I can control my unusual believes with meds but not my emotional symptoms I act on them during an episode all of it is turned inwards though I think it is better so if not I would be in the psych ward since a long time ago.
I have found that I am spending more and more time alone and enjoy it
I just brew some tea and watch television
I treat myself to Ben n Jerry’s and sushi (VERY important)
I think about my life and childhood as best I can
I am stuck in the mindset of things like falling over and dropping dead at any time
My best advice is live every day like it could be your last, but don’t do anything crazy (like drugs)
I been told they ate delusions but they do. I been in a struggle to find some friendship in the community, which i refuse to he a part of because im so paranoid. As much as i try i find it hard but you shouldnt be so hard on yourself i think your emotions and feelings are very valid, and i suggest you take it slowly. Much love @everhopeful
I strongly agree with the original message of this thread. My unusual beliefs delusions override my opinions on politics, religion, aesthetics and mundane mannerisms.
Much like some people who write long essays in this section, I have complex systems in mind. Most of them I tried to explain to others at some point or another. Most people don’t care, almost noone understands any of it.
Something to be expected by others, is mute horror to me. Like piles of garbage or meat markets. Something that I called out for a decade at this point, like torture, rape and war, is sudden and terrifying to others. But to me it just my predictions and warnings finally ringing true.
Even after I became almost sane and reduced my delusions to 1/100 of what it was, still just having a conversation is torture to me.
Yes i realise i can’t live in a 08-15 relationship. I have a disturbed resume to get a job and getting ripped off having a job. I can’t get on with coworkers. My unusual beliefs make me a clown for the circus.
My thought broadcasting delusion has made it hard for me to be around people. I tend to prefer to have my groceries delivered. It is hard to imagine a career in which I have to work with people. I have given up tennis for a few years now. I ruminate and can’t be fully productive. I am afraid of listening to the radio or watching T.V. although I watch YouTube.
I cant be home alone with my back turned.
I always need somebody to be watching out for me so that if the evil forces decide to rise up, I wont be caught offguard physically. Spiritually the good forces have my back but not being able to do anything physical means I cant do dishes, shave, or anything else alone where my attention may be temporarily diverted. Its very harrowing. There could be a battle at any moment and because I am the Lords herald I have to be on alert and watchful constantly in order to further fulfill my destiny.