I’m have been under stress because of my apartment inspection last Thursday and was getting a little delusional. Plus someone was killed outside my psych clinic a couple of weeks ago.
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I’ve been under quite a bit of stress irrational thinking happens but not symptoms.
I got symptoms when I was sick with a UTI though.
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I was getting delusional about someone monitoring me again and not reading things correctly.
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I have that delusion too and it scares the sh** out of me when it happens
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Sorry you are struggling with that.
My symptoms do respond to stress, though less so nowadays. Would someone be killed here, plus an inspection like that, I might have some symptoms too.
I have to lead a very calm life. Today I ate bad, had sensory overload (kiddo and I went to a crowded bazar in a big city by train), and I was sad because dad didnt congratulate me for my birthday, but started a fight instead. In the train I noticed my thinking started to slide a slight bit. What I personally did is go home right away and withdraw completely. Kiddo is not here now. I turn off the phone, block all people, skip all tasks for the evening, turn up the heat so it is very comfortable, have a calming tea, listen soothing music, wrap myself in a blanket, and treat myself as I would a little kid that has the flu. 
For me, this helps. Is there anything that makes you feel more relaxed?
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Not too much seems to help except getting my inspection completed and getting away from the clinic awhile. I’m definitely not standing around outside now. I also dusted off my pepper spray and am carrying it with me, just in case.
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I can imagine this killing really makes you feel unsafe. That is not a small thing. It is good that you can have your pepper spray again. Does any kind of institution (police, clinic, doc) tell people what is happening and what safety measures are taken?
I don’t really understand (maybe I read but forgot, my memory is crap, sorry): you are no longer in the clinic now? And you are in another area now?
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Yeah it definitely flares up during stress. Im working in therapy on stress management
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About two weeks ago, another client found a guy dead outside my psychiatric clinic. The police arrested a former client of the clinic and charged him with capital murder. It was on the local TV news. The morning the guy was killed I unexpectedly went to the ATM machine first and didn’t get there before the clinic opened like I usually do. I’m not going to go there anymore and be hanging around outside before they open now.
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I like the fact that I’m on surveillance cameras at the clinic, on the bus, and at the ATM, just not in my house.
That is scary. It would throw me off balance too. And take time to process. It is good that he is off the streets though. I hope that makes you at least feel a bit more safe. And good to not hang around there. You take the safety measures you can.
I didnt understand the word clinic, which made it confusing for me. You are an outpatient, I understand now. We use “kliniek” (clinic) for a ward too. I assumed you were in a ward when needing to hand over the pepperspray. Good that you are at home and not stuck there.
Could your therapist treat this? Maybe with EMDR? It is a very concrete situation that aroused your fear.
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My symptoms flare up under stress, like increased paranoia, anxiety and mood shifts.
This is on meds.
Off meds, stress would instantly put me in the psych ward
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Here’s the TV news link. I wasn’t hallucinating about the killing:
I can’t access that, it is forbidden here. But I believed you anyway. You do not sound delusional with that.
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My clinic is just the doctor’s office here. They do RDS as well, Rehabilitation Day Services. I have heard in other countries clinic may be what we call a hospital.
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It’s strange how I unexpectedly went to the ATM that morning. I was afraid I might have been killed too if I had been there that morning. I would add they may have come after me for the crime.
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Stress is definitely a catapult for symptoms for me. We all deal with some stress, it’s actually a good thing they say in small doses (helps motivate us), but when it starts to build up on me I definitely can feel the positive symptoms rearing their ugly heads.
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That is a scary thought. It is very normal to be stressed from that. It would be strange if it wouldnt upset you. I have been quite stressed for a while after a scary incident, where I just avoided a horrible situation. With time, it got less, and now it isn’t a problem. I hope this goes for you as well. What does your doc or therapist say or do?
I have ongoing positive symptoms, but they get more pronounced and harder to ignore as my stress load increases. Excessive stress will also start to damage my insight over time. I put a lot of effort into managing my stress.
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I do group therapy three to five times a week with a social worker. I see her once a week one-on-one session. I have a case worker too. The psychiatrist I only see as needed.
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