Do you think there was abuse you have no memory of

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My mother has scoliosis

Surgery and body cast
For 6 months

I was 4
My brother was 5

I’m not sure who took care of us

I’m not trying to blame anyone

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There was some abuse I didn’t remember until many years after it happened.

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Yeah I’m sure it was difficult when you realized it

I remember only being alone a lot

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Being alone too much can be damaging to a child. Children need the reassurance of human company.

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I actually had a good childhood and had few friends. It’s the transition to adult life that ruined me. If you get into Heaven, I sometimes wonder: do you get to choose what age you will be? Being a kid for eons in Heaven sounds really cool. Maybe you can choose your age any time in Heaven?

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I don’t think I have trauma I don’t remember really, what’s worse for me is the trauma that I know I have, that people try to convince me is not a big deal or is normal in some way.

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thanks for the replies

I had a fairly good childhood too

and so did my own kids

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Of course we forget abuse or neglect. Even people who experience severe trauma can forget. I don’t remember a lot from my life because I moved a lot and it made me forget things, that’s why they call it “up rooting” because it damages your memories.

http://www.joyfulheartfoundation.org/learn/child-abuse-and-neglect

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Right.

I have a few female friends that want to conjure up all those old forgotten things,
and certain therapists I think can do more harm than good sometimes.

It would never be something I’d do.

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I’m not really sure whether I was abused as a child. Not physical abuse, but a lot of verbal and neglect. Yet, maybe it wasn’t my parents - maybe it was me.
I was alone a lot. That was who I was. I still have problems socializing. On Sunday I went to a Christmas party. I came late and was the first to leave.

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I know there was. Either it’s stuff I have no memory of or it’s stuff I normalized in my head to the point where I wasn’t capable of recognizing it as abuse.

There’s a part of my childhood that my mom and aunt and grandmother refer to as a “really tough time” for me, and they’ve mentioned things like how they are amazed that I can forgive my father for it. I really don’t understand what they’re talking about, but I don’t really have any clear memories from that time and I have zero interest in figuring it out. I have enough terrible memories from other parts of my life, I don’t need any more.

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Yeah mine only is hugging my mom after so long

And she was all cast

I was scolded for my reaction

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Same. Most of the abuse was things I thought were perfectly normal until I was 24, when I got smacked in the face suddenly with how wrong and messed up it was. That, along with sexual assault that happened at the same time, was the cause of my big psychotic break. I think I’m better off now that I know it was abuse.

I had a friend who was upset because similar abuse happened to her, and I wasn’t very supportive because I thought she was making a big deal out of nothing. A few years later I apologized and explained that I had been dealing with the same stuff, and had just normalized it in my head as a coping mechanism. She forgave me, but the damage was already done and our friendship never recovered.

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I just would like to hear a psychological perspective

On sexual experiences

I’ve had some too

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I’ve always found it peculiar how much I struggle to remember the first nine years of my life. I was living in a beautiful home in Florida, but my memory is just so patchy of that time. I sometimes think a neighbor might’ve abused me and I completely blocked out the memory.

But it’s a reach because I only suspect due to the mysteriousness of those memories.

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That’s actually a really great question @Daze.

I often wonder if I was abused and have blocked it from my memory. There’s only one event that could be borderline sexually abusive from a doctor in my childhood.

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Abuse can and does happen but one should be mindful of

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Last month my doctor made me drop my shorts and turn my head to the side and cough. It was a bit traumatic.

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I remember all of it.

Shotguns pointed at me and the triggered being pulled so i’d hear the click, he grinned at me while he did it.

Being choked until unconscious. Being burned intentionally.

I remember everything.

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I think that I am different than a lot of people on here in that I think the worst I may have suffered was that my dad spanked me a couple of times when I was young. Nothing that goes as far as abuse though.