parents divorced, my mom working 8 to 5.
me out all over town for hours.
playing outside, doing whatever, library and stuff.
my dad a longs ways away, he never called.
when we visited, he never had food for us.
one time he had ice cream though, and I got big bowl,
and his woman at the time says to me, Do you want to
lose your girlish figure. I see now why your teen daughter killed herself, Anna.
idk.
I experienced neglect. I think it was different things that caused my SZ.
Sometimes I think that but then read online that trauma rather cause ptsd and depression than sz.
Also in a psychology book.
I was fated to either destroy myself with drugs or go insane due to religious fanaticism. Either way I was bound for schizophrenia. I too roamed far and wide as a child free as a bird. Those were the days when kids could go outdoors and they say it’s safer these days! I could have had a dad at home to encourage me to do schoolwork but I was a born fanatic and heard spirits as a child. I’ve nothing at all against religion just fanaticism.
I rememeber the second or third time i smoked mj i heard voices. It was scary and i had bad experiences which made me have a mental breakdown. I had alot of negative drug and alcohol experiences and environmemtal plus i have a sensitivity about me that ive always had. Well its okay 
i survived
Schizophrenia affected me in some positive ways and alot of neutral ways as well. Negative stuff sort of went away. My overall experience was sort of boring overall if i look back.
I have neglect, trauma, and more as child - just data about me. Not sure where SZ comes from.
My mum never really liked me for a while and nor me her, she has severe depression and I have always found that quite triggering because she looks somewat like me and I was scared the same would happen to me.
Having a rocky relationship with a child can have a long lasting negative impact.
In terms of stress
And we all know about stress and sz.
However I know she tries her best.
you maybe should have been thinking about her, and not you.
my daughter has Always visited me in hospital stays.
I wasn’t capable at the time.
Me and her had nasty fights.
I did not love myself enough at the time to know how to love my mum.
Things are different now.
I know she suffers very much and it is sad.
yeah? my daughter as a teen was typical.
but I insisted neither one of us don’t hold a grudge.
it’s carried over with Phil, we get over it after an hour or so.
That’s cool you guys can get back in a good mood with each other.
Idk how u and Phil fought, but sometimes arguments are really necessary, as long as no one feels threatened etc.
It’s just part of life I think.
true that. better than being all bottled up.
There were times I did feel neglected and discouraged but I used to take nootropics and then I would feel on top of the world. My suffering wasn’t due to true neglect but my paranoia and persecutory delusions. It was the background prodromal sz symptoms at work. My family loved me truly but I just did not believe it even when my mom would spend lots of money on travels during the holidays. We would always travel at least once a year except from my casual personal journeys. So neglect was just a term for sz in hiding.
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