But then you find you have no control
Or like its just all in your head the barrier
I only feel when am completely normal and then… boom, 1 voice and every sense of sanity is squashed
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Some days I feel like this. I have learned through trial and error not to try this as a recovery method anymore. No amount of good attitude can replace medication and therapy.
Yes. I have gotten pretty good at ignoring my illness, like it’s going to make me better.
I used to feel that often for the first few years of my disease.
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Ly in bed so many nights wanting answers and trying to figure it all out, drives you to insanity at times and wastes so much time in your life, trying to solve a puzzle that you can’t
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No.
Its real.
and my response is natural and understandable.
they say schizophrenics are usually in denial of their illness, during the first few years.
when I was in denial, I kept getting put in a psych ward. some nurse told me that if I kept denying my illness, i was going to keep coming in and out of wards.
but now I’ve realized my mentality. I haven’t been a ward, for the last 6 months.
When I first learned that I might have issues via a friend telling me so after I involved her in one of my delusions, I immediately reasoned with myself that I could easily just stop believing in those things and stop getting paranoid and whatever. I saw it as just a personality quirk. Then I realized I had no control…and that it really was an illness…I think the moment where you realize you have no power over what you experience is really a terrifying one.
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I’ve had these problems for nine years and i still feel like that at times. It’s crushingly disappointing. i hate it. I probably get that false hope because of how ignorant my family and the rest of the world is of the disorder.
I was aware that something was wrong with me and that I had schizophrenia very early on in my disease.
But as I understand the question, sometimes even in the throes of psychosis I distinctly remember feeling that if I really, really, desired to I could just “snap out if it” and nothing would be wrong with me and my symptoms would disappear as if nothing had happened.
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Unfortunately there is no snapping out of it. You just take your meds and hope they work. If they don’t work, then you try other meds.
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