I used to. If you do, does it work? And what do you use? Just curious guys. 
For many many years. Alcohol and opiates mostly, but I went through phases where I did some of pretty much everything. And no, it didn’t really work but it seemed like it did.
Alcohol doesn’t really sit well with my for some reason, opiates are nice. That’s what I stick to if I do use. I like pills. I can’t handle my doc (drug of choice) anymore unfortunately (or fortunately… Lol)
Used to smoke weed all the time before becoming ill. Now i can’t touch it and i miss it so much. I can still drink, though.
I didn’t really drink when I did opiates, I didnt like the alcohol to interfere with my high. I started on pills and worked my way up to heroin. I’ve been clean from the for about 7 years, and clean from alcohol for a year. I like myself a lot better now.
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Congratulations on being sober!
My medication is aa and sobriety these days. Self medicating made some things worse, some things better. I don’t regret it. Gotta be sober now though.
Same here with weed. I was a stoner in highschool. I couldn’t imagine my life without being high. I moved on to other drugs and everything changed. Now I’m too scared to smoke, I don’t know his my mind will react. I might have a panic attack- I might chill out. Idk.
I really really really miss being able to do drugs. I was an addict, and I still am. I just can’t act on it.
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Thank you. It’s hard sometimes but it’s worth it.
I know. Its extremely hard. I don’t have any spending money right now but when I do I’m going to have to be wise and stay on the right path.
I used to self medicate with alcohol, but I haven’t done that in over seven months. I still crave alcohol, though. I’ve found that when I get drunk I feel better for a few hours, but then when I have to sober up the feeling is worse.
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Yes I have noticed the crash or come down from anything is really difficult. It almost makes the high not worth it.
Have you ever been to a 12 step program?
I smoked a little bit after getting on meds. There were times where it would be just a normal high but last time i smoked it felt like my delusions were coming back. Only difference was that i knew they weren’t real. Since then i haven’t touched it. It also made my voices louder. Voices never bugged me too much, though.
No. I chose a stabilization unit over a rehab. I feel I could benefit from rehab, even though I’m sober I’m still an addict and I feel the need to get high.
Yes. That feeling gets stronger the more addicted you get. Alcoholics get drunk out of their minds and go into a blackout and do and say all kinds of crazy things they don’t remember. I should know. I am an alcoholic. Finding out you did something really crazy last night when you sober up the next day can be a dismal experience. Then, of course, you have to deal with the shakes.
I feel ya. I suffer from thought broadcasting and mind reading so… Every time I get high I feel like EVERYONE knows. Which is a nightmare. Extreme paranoia
It sucks.
Its so hard to not think the ■■■■■■■thought “I’m high” when you’re high … Haha
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12 step program—aa or Na
Rehabs implement 12 step programs most the time but I’m talking aa, na, etc…
It’s not perfect, not for everybody. I had to build up a thicker skin before I could tolerate it, but it’s helpful to me. I’ll go again tonight.
Alcohol doesn’t really do much for me. I don’t enjoy it. But drugs… Man I love drugs. Or I did. When I had the mind that could handle them 
Are you sober now?
I went to a beginners men’s meeting the other night, one kid had to explain blackouts
He said “blackouts are when you wake up and have 11 texts from people you don’t remember texting”. That’s the worst feeling. I’m happy I won’t have to deal with that…at least for today…
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