I got drunk and took a xanny and ended up blacking out and driving myself home. I woke up and I was like HOW THE ■■■■ DID I DRIVE HOME?
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I know the feeling 
It’s especially true if you mix benzos with alcohol
I take three, count em, three, medications that say “avoid alcohol”…that never stopped me though. That’s one of many reasons I’m an alcoholic.
I preferred drugs too though
Psychedelics
Marijuana, mdma, LSD, mescaline, dmt, ayahuasca and shrooms
Didnt think opiates were worth it the one time I did Vicodin, but it killed the curiosity, thought Coke was too expensive, no one does meth around here. I did adderall once, didn’t enjoy it or the company I was around, bad memory.
Yeah meds and alcohol never mix well. I would either get sick or I would become psychotic
I have a strong past with amphetamines.
Me and my ex were addicted for a while. Emotional unforgettable rollarcoaster. I miss the old days. When we first started using… Before everything got out of hand.
I’ve never used a psychedelic because I just knke I’d have a bad trip. Lol
Yup I think all addicts and alcoholics do. This resonates with me greatly.
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I’ve been dry for about 7 1/2 months. I don’t know if I would call it sobriety.
Never thought I’d be an addict or alcoholic
It couldn’t happen to ME
But I always was
First night I got drunk on White Russians I woke up and drank more vodka
When I first started smoking weed, it immediately was an every day thing.
It’s just how I’m wired
I think about it and get so depressed that I can’t live that life anymore. So blissfully unaware of anything negative. So happy and high… Lol
I guess I had my run.
I took Adderall for several years, I can see the draw of amphetamines
Same… Maybe addictive personalities?
I’m happy I’m sober because deep down it was misery. Now I’ve found spirituality and a love of things and it feels good to be sober. Feels good to work towards goals. I’m doing really well despite being 32 days sober only. I haven’t had a real craving in 12 days
Adderall was my first pill I took. First upper. I fell in love with it and became addicted. Adderall sent me into my first psychosis. I somehow came out of it and went back to normal…
Then used meth for a while…
And the psychosis eventually came back.
Uppers made me so happy. I couldn’t help it
Good to hear. Lol here I am saying Boohoo I miss my drug past. I’m glad you changed the direction of this convo. Its nice being healthy and “clear headed” . and I know gods proud of me.
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It’s a section of our brains. I take naltrexone and it helps with alcoholic cravings, and it made me realize it’s a “disease”. I never truly understood that, I thought it was just normal to drink and drug. Now that I take medication for it and feel better about the cravings, I realize it was my brain chemistry all along. I fully grasp that now. And it feels great. I think it’s something to do with dopamine idk.
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I never really liked drugs or alcohol it was just an escape method. So I never had an addiction.
Weed made me hallucinate or dissociate. Alcohol would trigger mania aND depression more frequently.
I tried coke a couple times. It’s not even close to a mania high lol.
I just have coffee now for the most part. Well accepted 
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Meth ■■■■■■ all my chemicals up… I think low amounts of dopamine is why I feel like I need something to pick me up and make me happy. I don’t see how people around me are so naturally happy… I envy them. Serotonin levels have a part in it too. I just get confused with what that is
I’m hoping the longer I stay away from meth my brain will heal and return back to normal. I pray…
Ha…your story is similar to mine…I ate 50 perc 10s and was the dd…I don’t know how I made it back…heh…terrible…
Good for you @anon68237654. 
People like you and @77nick77 are great role models, showing that it’s possible to overcome addiction.
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