In 2017-18 I was in a good place despite my illness. If you looked on my instagram I was going to art shows and hiking and attend support groups, I made new friends after years of being a loner due to illness, I started working and driving and listening to the radio… I had a good life. But right now after my second episode I still try to do the same things but I don’t seem to enjoy them as much. I feel like life would be better once I work or get back into a relationship but I feel like I have all I need right now to be happy. A few things still make me happy though like when I open up and bond with my friends and family. When I saw a little bit of The Green Book at the library and thought “that’s more of what I need.” I’m also happy I lost weight and am quite pretty right now. It is kind of a nice feeling to wear cute clothes to support group to show off a little lol, though I’m definitely not one who cares too much about such things. I’m kind of finding meaning in art and support group and hiking. And I take day treatment for granted but thinking about it, the program is really helping me grow again. I guess my silver lining right now is that I continue to see improvement and growth in my life and I don’t feel like life is moving backwards or stopped in it’s tracks. I hope I can adjust to my decreased functioning level since my second episode and still find happiness. I feel like once we’ve gotten used to being schizophrenic it’s really easy to see that there is a silver lining there. Have you found that good place in your recovery?
It’s gonna take time, take your time, some dont think patience is a virtue and take it in laughter thinking is the weak man feeling.
But I think, in the world of today we need patience more then ever.
It’s good that you’re caring about your appearance. That usually means you’re getting better. I need to adjust a bit too, I probably can’t code anymore or anything mathematically intensive, but if I stick to basic jobs I should be fine.
I don’t know what mine is yet. Maybe once I put myself out there and have a more social experience I can say that it’s taught me things. I’m just glad the delusions died down, it’s nice to be in a normal world again. I just got this 5 years ago, and the stats say a lot of people are doing better 5 to 10 years out from first psychosis, so I got a lot to hope for.
I wish I exercised way more when younger. I’ve been doing the sz thing since 1999 and I was 29 when diagnosed.
It’s one of those chicken or the egg moments. I spent a lot of time existing which is fine. You can do it on the meds and I think I’m in that transition phase anyways. I’m soon to be 49. Positives are way low and leading a rich and realized life is good for me. I’ve no complaints.
Still. I would say to everyone to increase exercise and don’t load up on things like nicotine. Healthy choice is the way to go. That is my silver lining at 48and 11 months.
My motto is “every touch of grey has a silver lining”
It sounds like you’re doing all the right things. The day treatment sounds really good. I was so messed up after my last episode I opted out of DT because I couldn’t do groups, and I still can’t do them. I ended up taking the long route but I pushed hard. After all, my baby steps added up and I am doing well these days. SZ is no joke, you’re in a good place.
I don’t know where I’d be if I didn’t have day treatment or support groups because I don’t like being completely alone. Sometimes I try to set normal people standards for myself rather than treat myself as a person with limited abilities who can’t have a decent life. For example I try to watch movies and read even though I get less out of it than before.
Hello @anon62973308.
You are Asian American as far as I understand.
I am sorry to hear you are having problems.
I wish that you feel as well as possible, may all your wishes come true.
Have you tried exercising?
For me, I can’t read as of now and can’t watch movies.
On the other hand, I can exercise and I do so for many hours a day.
I also play chess at a decent level.
What I advise you to do, is to find an occupation, not necessarily a job, not necessarily a “normie” occupation like watching TV or playing computer games, but something that you can do,
that you are relatively successful at, that can occupy your time and give you a sense of meaning and fulfillment.
Examples of such things: aerobic training on exercise machines, and strength training on exercise machines. I do these, these are awesome for my health, and they take many hours of my time every day.
Other options that I used to do( although these did not fit me well health wise, they may suit you):
Going to sauna, going to tanning salon.
Another awesome option: You can check out how good you are at chess.
If you have at least some talent, you can become a “professional” chess player, practice and play in competitions. It won’t bring you income, but it is absolutely a meaningful activity that will bring you joy,
fulfillment and contentment in life.
I desperately hope that you will find a niche in your life, because you are one of my favorite users on this forum.
I like what @Chess24 says. If someone isn’t happy with where they are in recovery, they they should try to find things they can do successfully and do those things so they can start to feel better about themselves again. Then after a while, they can try new, possibly harder things and even succeed at those. This can really build self esteem.
Yes, I do still exercise or keep active a good deal though I am very tired right now from day treatment and support groups so I’m not exercising enough. Starting this week I think I’ll try to do at least 10,000 steps per day again. Exercise is a great activity and I’m glad you’re doing it! I think it’s important to have a direction or idea what you want to do with yourself like if you want to volunteer or help someone in some way. Find something that gives you more purpose.
@anon62973308, my life is very difficult…
I wish I had an easier, more comfortable life.
What can I do… My fate is to have a very difficult life.
@anon62973308, I wish I were not schizophrenic and that my life would be easier and more comfortable.
Yah its hard sometimes. People seem to be saying lower expectations. Don’t expect to do what someone else is doing. But if @anon62973308 can be somewhat happy yhen we all can. It’s working for her all right. . Rebuilding…
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