Do you have a problem with this in any way?
I’m wondering if this is a Sz thing?
Even before medicine I made near constant mistakes from not thinking things through, and when I tried I came up with the wrong decision.
Making it even worse, I keep repeating the mistakes by not learning the lesson like I’m some poorly trained robot.
It’s like I can’t get rid of some negative personality traits.
I settled with this is just who I am. I am a good person and still believe I can change.
What ever is going on takes a good few days for me to connect the dots. I am also struggling to speak properly as I am saying the wrong words
By then it’s too late to stop any suffering
Can’t seem to close the gap between experience and awareness
Pretty dangerous to be honest if I am having thoughts to harm myself
Short term memory is basically shot
At work I found a way to get round it. Takes lots of notes and write down everything going on
Don’t need to read them. The process of taking notes helps me remember things much better for some reason
Maybe because I am more visual in my thinking
Probably a question for a licensed professional
What you have happening seems to be a mirror image as me, slow to connect dots, using words other than what I mean, all of it. It may be similar for all of us.
I have thought so many times of taking notes. I bought a clipboard to do it but haven’t so far. Thinking it will help me too, thanks
Give it a try
I almost go into a trance when taking notes and it seems to stick better
Yeah I’m the same I need get organized. I finally wrote some things down that I need to take care of for the day. And it is already helping. I need to change too. My diabetes is getting pretty bad and I’m obese. I’m vaping nicotine. I have a lot of paperwork to do around the house and organize. i’m not giving up. To think things through I’m in a good position. I am negative still. But I have changed a lot to a more positive person.
Been thinking about this since the post and see I have a lot more self restraint now and less impulsive than before. So maybe in time…
yep, tell myself fink it fru bruv
You are a good person and you can change if you want to. But you don’t need to, either.
The older I get, the harder it is to think critically. I was diagnosed with autoimmune white matter disease back somewhere between 2009 and 2011. (Since then I’ve been diagnosed with yet another autoimmune disease). I’m thinking that may be why.
It’s very frustrating and scary because I have a lot of years left in life so I’m scared of how much wore it can get
Disorganized thinking, confusion, going over the same things again and again and being unable to make a good insightful decision is something most of us struggle with. Three years ago I started writing in a journal to sort out what I was thinking. It has over 3000 pages in it now. I highly recommend writing your thoughts down in a PRIVATE, locally stored, off the cloud journal. It can help. Best of everything in your recovery @heartfulhands .
Thanks for the advice @Unclehenry
I started to journal this past July and uncovered so much that I forgot about. It also helped me organize my thoughts and experiences, which has helped give more clear information to my doc. It’s a nice creative hobby too.
That’s great! My journal has become my trusted friend that always listens to what I have to say as I type the words I hear in my mind. It’s now a record of my inner truth as I discover it day by day. It’s always there to listen to me, like a trusted friend. I think you are on a good path. Keep going.