Returning to an normal life experience is my ultimate goal. Quitting tobacco is a big one.
My ambitions are more about internal battles rather than worldly things.
I do have distant hopes that within a couple years I’ll have the right mindset and focus to get back into working.
If I think about all that now though it just adds up to a lot of unnecessary stress. All in due time. I can’t pursue those things quite yet.
I’d like to master the minimalist lifestyle, from there I can build up what I want. I have my own apartment, a car I own, a computer I built, my cat gonzo whose 5 yrs old(he’s becoming one of the most docile but interactive and well trained cats I’ve come to know).
If you enjoy graphic design I’d stick with it until you have a better plan(finances) for making the switch.
I used to dream, but the dreams were to big and had a hand in my psychosis. False sense of importance/superiority/entitlement feeling special and different. The schizoid type personality, even before I got sick.
Wanted to be an inventor that sit on the brink of the known and made a name for himself by pulling humanity further along every chance he could. AI, automated economy, free education through interacting with AI, eventually political activism encouraging socialization of the states.
I’ve got white hairs coming in just from the stress of it.