Yea sz really set me back in life
I’m definitely downgraded after sz. Before, I was a commissioned nurse officer in the Air Force. I had a career and status. Now, all that’s been taken from me. Forever gone.
But you still have some?
But Providence that watches over the just often leads them by the path of humiliation to the goal of glorious reward. - Alexander de Rouville.
I totally get that. There is so much I can’t do anymore
Hell, I was doing worse before schizophrenia. Schizophrenia made me more responsible. I used to party all the time before I got sick. I had a string of minimum wage, entry level jobs that I never lasted more than three months at.
I was headed for nowhere in life. I had a couple crappy cars, and lived with my parents and stole and drank and had my share of scrapes with the law. Schizophrenia hits and I suffered for sure, for about the first two or three years. But then, through no fault of my own, I got my shi* together and got a job and enrolled in college. I got a car that was decent and was a step up from my previous cars. I made a couple friends and I did a lot of fun stuff.
Reality was still there. I did lousy at parties and felt on the outside of things. But hey, I had a friend who was a normie and was taking graphic design at college. His parents lived in a nice town and this guy was cool and looked out for me a little. When I was hooked on crack and starving he brought me free food from the restaurant he worked at. And later when I got fired from my 4 year job he got me a job at his restaurant. It’s funny, my normie friends could have probably kicked my ass but hell, I was doing better than both of them in many ways. And I’ve always been friendly if you give me a chance and they got more girls but I got lucky every now and then. And if I wasn’t so worried about looking cool I would have got more.
Yeah, a lot of my jobs after I got sick were minimum wage but hell, I lasted for years at them, day in and day out. And I was a park ranger and a cook and was one of the best workers at my truck unloading job at Sears. Yeah, I’m nice as anyone else but I still get treated like crap by some people.
No I dont think so
Im still the same person, I dont think I have any permanent damage or anything, though things are harder right now I believe I can be back to my former self
Sometimes. Most days I have to push myself, but if I didn’t do that good days would be much fewer and farther between
Absolutely have downgraded since I got schizo affective disorder. I barely leave my house and I have poor hygiene worse than ever. It is very humbling.
My life was way better before schizophrenia. That’s for sure.
I feel the same a lot of days. I feel like I could have been this amazing person who could have done so much more but instead mental illness and narcolepsy turned me into someone who can work and sleep and really nothing else. At least I can work though.
Any potential I had got obliterated many decades ago. Long before SMI. Prep school,public school,being bullied and rejected, a 2e type before there was recognition,help and support for such children and adolescents.
I re started skateboarding before my psychosis. I could only skate for one and a half year before psychosis hit me. No drugs during the skateboarding time. I remember having a deck that I’ve put on to skate in mild rainy weather. It was like 4 - 8 hours skateboarding every possible day. I even stopped gaming to afford my skateboards, clothes and shoes all the time.
Haven’t played games even when it was impossible to skate outside. I just watched Skateboarding videos and pictures or skateboarding magazine websites. Never thought once of mental illness that could happen. Psychosis came from one day to the other.
Honestly the professionals don’t exactly know what I have.
All I know is that my life was a lot easier pre illness.
Now I have a real hard time jumping in the shower or brushing my teeth.
I also find very few things pleasurable other than eating and watching pornography.
Honestly I think it’s my AP risperdal
I had more motivation and enjoying more activities on Abilify.
Same for me but cant take it anymore. Did you try Caplyta? Maybe I already asked that question. I wish Caplyta or Vraylar were available here.
No I don’t have a good track record using partial dopamine agonists. @Aziz
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