Do you ever lie to your pdoc?

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I just got back from my pdoc appointment. I lied to her again. Not because I’m just trying to deceive her, but because I am afraid. She always asks how I’m doing and I always tell her I’m improving. That’s not true. I don’t feel any different. Voices still there and paranoia still through the roof. I guess I’m just afraid that she will get mad that I’m not improving.

Second lie is that I don’t tell her that I continue to see things that aren’t there. I have never really talked about that with her. I’m afraid that she will put me away. People on here have told me over and over again that it’s not likely, but the paranoia is still there.

Do any of you ever lie to your pdoc or therapist?

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I lied to mine in the past, but it just seemed stupid in the end, because if he doesn’t know my symptoms he can’t help me. Now I’m honest and it all goes smoothtly and I have the best care I can ask for.

Take your meds, they’re good for you! (moms tone of voice)

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Not recently, but about 3 years ago I was going through a hard time and I had some nurse practitioner at a clinic in charge of my care. Holy hell she was awful! She called me in to her office one day and said that since I had told my case manager I was experiencing command hallucinations, she was putting me in the hospital. I didn’t need hospitalization, I needed a med tweak. So I went to the hospital like I said I would (she threatened to get the police involved if I didn’t go on my own, within 2 hours).

Once there, I told the intake person that I was experiencing these voices, but that I was not currently (at time of interview). She asked me some questions, sent me to the lobby, and called Nurse Dipshit to say I was not a candidate for admission. I lied to the interviewer about the voices, but I had a plan and took matters into my own hands when I got home from the interview. I filed a grievance with the clinic over Nurse Dipshit never getting back to me after I called and said the code words, “I am in crisis” for 5 days. They approved my grievance in record time, I was in to see a real doctor in 48 hours, and Nurse Dipshit was transferred.

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In the past I used to mostly lie if they asked me if I’d taken any drugs since I last saw them and I had, but now I don’t take any and I would tell them if I did.

I also generally try to tone down my paranoia like you do, on the off chance some of my thoughts could get me hospitalised. I don’t have a problem with going to hospital really except that I’d lose my benefits and I need the income. I used to tell them I had such and such paranoid thoughts but didn’t completely believe it to be true even if I did, now I’m honest about the fact I don’t agree with them that I have delusions.

For the most part though I try to be honest, just sometimes leave the odd thing out, or say that I don’t completely believe in my ‘delusions’

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I always try to be as honest with her as possible.

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I use to be honest all the time with my doctors until I got one that didn’t give two shits. he refused to tweak the medicine and I broke down and got admitted to the hospital the second time. he was a butthole. He didn’t believe me when I said the risperidone wasn’t helping at such a low dose and he made it hard for me to trust doctors ever again.

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I feel like I lied by keeping to myself that u had a bad day yesterday. I’m afraid he won’t let me take Strattera which I’m about to try for the first time this week

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My Pdoc has questioned me countless times because I tend to very treatment resistant. Finally he tried me on Haldol and things are different, there for a time he would ask and I would say do you want me to tell you the truth or what you want to hear.

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don’t lie to him, and if you are having a bad day before you start a new med don’t hide it. The new med may help solve the problem.

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I’m always honest with my psychiatrist.

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When I first went to the psychiatrist I played down my symptoms and always claimed a slight improvement in my condition. … now I always tell the truth. … I have to practice what im going to say to him as in the past I wouldn’t remember symptoms.

Take care Kate xxx

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I write down what I need to say. It’s so easy to get flustered at an appointment otherwise.

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I do the same thing, I write it down and read and re read it over and over again before I go in to see the doctor,

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I’m afraid to tell mine about my naps! She’s very disapproving. It was my assignment to leave the house when I felt like napping and I had about a 15% success rate. Other stuff came up so she didn’t get a chance to ask, but I can’t promise I wouldn’t have lied if she did.

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I actually did that today; really helped.

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I have lied about command hallucinations, too, because I have encountered intake personnel who write this down as a 5150, a threat to self and others, when this is not always the case (the general tendency of people who don’t have these command hallucinations is to assume we listen to them, or obey them as if we have no choice–that is wrong). I can listen to command hallucinations without feeling any urge to act on the commands. I mean that it’s like a freaky soundtrack that won’t stop playing in the background of a horror movie, but at no point am I under the belief that I should act on the voices. However, tell that to your average mental health tech and watch their eyes bug out of their skulls and goosebumps race up their arms.
Thus far the command voices do not influence my level of aggression towards real people, but pdocs just assume hearing commands will i dunno—make me bad?? but it won’t, as i have 0 history of violence.

besides, why is it a given that we have to share the contents of our hallucinations to everyone? Why can’t i just say, “I’m having audio hallucinations and I don’t want to talk about what they’re saying”? That never flies with the staff I’ve been around…no such thing as privacy for us, I guess, I’ve always had the most dragged out sessions with pdocs and techs trying to rip out the contents of my hallucinations and for no purpose, as they couldn’t figure out what to do with that info anyways…it was just painful to have that information interrogated out of me to begin with. If it causes more harm than benefit, I will lie to avoid harm.

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Yes and to the staff, techs and all the other ones in the line, are something are safer for me and others to simpley not be told some hallucinations etc best not said. Like where goes on in the field stays in the field, what goes on in my head stays in my head. Same deal but for me a lot of my things are still so raw i am simplely not able to talk about them not yet

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I take my time to get to know my doc. If I trust the person I will be honest. If I don’t, well, I play it down.

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I lied for years.

I started seeing psychiatrists in my teens, while very depressed. I was institutionalized at 16 during a psychotic episode.

The staff at the hospital had been told I was suicidal. I wasn’t; that’s just what my mother told them to get them to hold me there. Every day they would come in and ask if I felt like hurting myself or others, and I’d tell them no, because I didn’t.

At one point I told one of the nurses – a young lady I felt I could trust – that I heard voices and sometimes saw things that no one else could see. Then the everyday questions became “Are you hearing anything? Like what? Seeing anything? Describe it. Do you feel like hurting yourself or others?”

Well, yeah, now I did, because they were asking invasive questions.

I figured they wouldn’t let me out if I was honest, so I lied.

I kept lying for years, because I was afraid that if I told anyone about my hallucinations, I would be REALLY crazy.

I’ve been getting worse over the past few years. I told a psychiatrist about the hallucinations, but she stopped seeing me because I missed a couple of appointments. Now I have no psychiatrist, but I am honest with my doctor and my therapist.

Yes, my honesty got me hospitalized once. I needed to be hospitalized; I was panicking and suicidal. It was a good experience, overall. I got on better meds, I met some really neat people, and I got two weeks of sleeping in a comfy bed and eating decent meals three times a day (which kinda sucked because at the time I was struggling with eating). I was terrified going in, but it was good. Don’t be afraid of getting the help you need.

Now if only I could be honest with everyone else… but there’s still that lingering fear of being “kicked out” of society…

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