I used to do martial arts and I love watching mixed martial arts. But unfortunately, I can’t afford to except once per year we save up and watch once a year. One time we had a party at our house for a match and it ended in 6 seconds! Huge letdown
I used to do a lot of amateur fighting/sparring in bars and stuff. It was not a safe hobby, but at the time I had a very dangerous job and it was a good way to work out the extra adrenaline. I eventually developed a sense of self-preservation and an active desire to be alive.
At the time, my best defense was being the only fighter without balls XD
Those days are long gone now, and I am much happier. I no longer feel the need to engage in controlled physical violence to feel at peace. I’m not sure if that’s because I left the dangerous job, or because my hormones evened out.