I’m a bit ‘left of center,’ as I like to say, but it’s never necessary if people have eyes that see.
what is left of center?
A bit off center of normal.
Has nothing to do with any political talk.
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lol sorry I’m dumb, thought it was politics - I know nothing about politics
You’re never dumb for asking a question.
It’s where the word ‘Eccentric’ gets it’s definition.
*technical:
(of a thing) not placed centrally or not having its axis or other part placed centrally.
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Because I didn’t become MI until 46, I have a lot of experience being ‘normal’. I have to say being MI feels VERY different than being ‘normal’. I never felt like this before MI. Not at all.
My delusion tells me I am not sick, that I really do live in a fake reality and I really am being brain controlled and monitored by scientists and watched by the whole world all the time. ‘They’ have hurt me badly and scared me terribly. My only hope is meds and that is why I take them. The paranoia is awful. Besides, ‘they’ want me to be MI and to take meds. They are studying me. ‘They’ put me in this scenario to begin with. If I don’t ‘play along’ with being MI and taking meds, ‘they’ (brain scientists) will hurt me so I have no choice. It’s pretty shytty to be honest.
So, I don’t think I am sick but, on the other hand, I never felt like this when I was ‘normal’ so I must be sick. I never had voices or delusions or weird thoughts or anything. I had troubles but I was always forward thinking and hopeful.
Whatever ‘this’ is, it ain’t ‘normal’ and I would know.
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Without a doubt, but I’m not sure they got the dx correct. I don’t know if there is a dx for what I have.
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I was very delusional I was horribly sick but didn’t know why or with what, I had theories I was turning psychotic (but this also was due to reading so much on the topic of psychotic illnesses before and during the time my symptoms were active). So in a sense, maybe it helped me out on reading to figure out, “hey there’s something awry here!”
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I know I am sick. However, I do not always feel so. There are days I feel halfway normal.
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i know i’m sick… My hallucinations used to be very loud… voices, music etc… and it would confuse me and I would say weird things to people cos of the voices. It made me think everyone knows about my private life cos i felt people were talking to me/about me, when they werent.
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I would veer more towards socially dysfunctional than sick.
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I know I’m sick because ever since I’ve realized what SZ is and cut out the things that cause me to be delusional like drugs and alcohol the voices have become more vindictive/negative. My cognition has gotten worse and it’s like there’s an unseen force dragging me off to the grave. I also suffer from somatic delusions, which may or may not suggest real physical health problems. I am currently trying to treat these somatic delusions holistically and have had some success doing so. I personally believe somatic delusions are due to a virus of some type in our bodies that needs to be treated.
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in reply to the heading question, i knew i was sick before i was even diagnosed and i knew there was something wrong straight away almost but i let it get out of hand, i thought i could handle it but i couldnt, that was years ago now and i have moved on, i am now doing well on a good med and trying to keep busy, got a car too xxx
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I should add that it’s like the voices are peer pressuring me into smoking weed. They’re becoming negative because I have given that up but I know that it will just feed the delusion.
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Have you listened to Unwell by Matchbox 20? It’s my favorite song at the moment. Your comment reminds me of it!
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Hi, this is my first post here. I believe something’s really wrong and I remember what it was like before I started having auditory hallucinations, which are now daily. I think everyone has an inner voice in their head that they “hear” when they think to themselves or read silently. But hearing voices through your ears is not normal and doesn’t happen to most people unless someone is actually there speaking. It’s scary and disorienting.
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I was miserable without my meds I’ve gotten so much better still can’t work tho so hopefully they don’t take my disability away
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I don’t know. It seems like I spend most of the time not believing I’m sick. I just have talked to so many people about voices and it seems most people have them. I can remember talking to a junior high school friend about it and she had them too. I do identify with a lot I hear on here though. Oh well I’ll just keep taking my meds just in case.
injection i do every month reminds me that iam sick.
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I’ve been told by my former psychiatrist that I’m normal and my symptoms rise from boredom. I’ve been told by my psychologist that my symptoms rise from being in love and being bored. I can relate to what they’re saying, when I’m busy or am not in love my positive symptoms disappear. I can compare my symptoms to what you have when you have an argument with a loved one. Something (their voice or energy) runs through your heart and exposes in your mind. Like your talking to them through your heart, like some sort of inner monologue. I do sometimes hear voices though and they’re gone more stupid over time, they aren’t able to trick me like it used to be and I think that’s the key for not having voices in my head, the more they reveal they’re hallucinations and they’re fake the less I feel I’m sick. To sum it up, no, I don’t believe I’m sick, I’m just to incentive and I believe once I’m in love with the right girl my schizophrenia will also go in remission. Love destroyed me, love can build me up again.
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