Sz is bad, but I lived a pretty decent life throughout. Mentally I have had it hard but my life has been easy to make up for it. Life is full of positive and negative things. And the thing about negative things is you can always learn from them.
I think our perception of "hell"in our lives is usually shifted when things go right and we find pleasure- after all it is what we are here for, to survive and avoid pain. So saying that, we call our lives hell for (given reason) we shift our view negatively to the point where you won’t see the good in life. Would I consider my life hell? No, not really, because hell in definition is punishment after death… I do see pain and suffering in my life, but I also see the beauty of being able to grow from that pain… I’m rambling. But yeah thats pretty much it…
There have been some parts of my life that have been hellish in the past, and I guess certain aspects of it are hellish now. But I don’t feel like my life has been a waste, and there are parts of it I like.
I’ve been trying to explain to myself the 4th option of the poll. I came to the conclusion that it was just something that popped into my head and means nothing. Sorry if it bothers anyone.
For me being able to communicate like a toddler, being 300 lbs with an extreme appetite, being harassed by voices, extreme headache, all I did was walk in circles. I felt I had to relearn everything.
I was in hell on the installment plan during my first two years after being diagnosed. It was more like a province though. Whatever it was, I did not like it.