Do you think animals have a soul/consciousness? My voices told me they must not have it, because then I can’t be tortured after death.They didn’t tell me what relation do these 2 things have, other than saying “It would be a chaos” if they did have a soul.
They’ve also told they don’t care what I did to animals (I may have fed my aunt’s dog a snail once when I was a kid, can’t remember if it was me, my brother, or my cousin who did it; but the dog died some time after that, I don’t know if it was because of him swallowing the snail), but they “care” (not emotionally, but logically) about what I did or would have done to people, probably because they assume or “know” that animals don’t have a consciousness.
My schizophrenia has dug up various memories I didn’t even remember. One thing the inserted thoughts or voices keep saying is that I tortured my cousin. One time I kept the volume of the TV all the way up, because her father was talking and laughing so loud (he was drunk at the time; it’s typical for him, if he gets drunk, to say something he finds funny and then laugh at it, and then repeat that over and over again) I couldn’t hear the TV. I think I was listening to it to escape from my anxiety. She asked if I could turn down the volume and I told I can’t because his father is talking too loud. The voices are saying she maybe tried to sleep (I can’t remember if she told that or not), and if I didn’t let her sleep it was a torture. I don’t know why I was blind to her perspective and didn’t turn down the volume; the voices are saying it could have been either because I was mad at his uncle, or I was obsessed with listening to the TV.
The voices now have a 2 theories why I got this schizophrenia to control me: 1) because I have obsessive ideas, or 2) because I’m stupider than every other person (they call it mystical stupidity), and they’re saying either of them could be a flaw of my soul, which is why I need to be tortured after death forever - otherwise I might reincarnate somewhere else and bother the people/beings there. They’ve also told those beings may have genetically engineered themselves to be psychopathic, or free of compassion, because compassion would limit them - they couldn’t torture someone eternally if they had compassion.
This is not my delusion - it’s just what the voices/fake thoughts have told me.