Mine was gradual. Started hearing a baby cry at 16 y.o. I ignored it but voices only got more severe and I started hearing god telling me to do bad things at 18 y.o. Right before my diagnosis voices god told me to kill myself and I nearly succeeded according to the emergency drs. I was 21 y.o.
My negative symptoms were also gradual and were never resolved bcz there is no meds for it. I started having less friends then no friend and deleted them from social media. At the end I never went out of my house, no more lonely walking and eating at restaurents, complete social isolation. That’s where I am now but without positive symptoms.
Me I went to mental hospital more than 4 times. 1 time my parents brought me and 3 times by the police, once 4 policemens came to my house bcz my parents told the police I was violent. The police stayed with me in the hospital until I was seen by a night psychiatrist.
I have only negative and cognitive symptoms and its super gradual. Working memory issue is the first symptom I noticed and it gradually got worse and still continuing. I say its super gradual as I noticed symptoms for over 20 years now. Symptoms in order (first to current) working memory issue, anhedonia, OCD, depression, blank mind, apathy, blunted affect, flat affect (currently). It doesn’t mean I got freed from first symptom instead it all got combined and flat affect is the last new symptom to notice.
All I can say is never, EVER again…
I kick my own ass for the stupid things I did as a teenager…
Now that I’m 31 I am so deep in psychosis I can’t even work a job…
My premorbid/prodromal phase was about ten years long from 12yo to 22yo with a gradual deterioration of mental health. It ends with an acute delusional episode and hospitalization. Today negative symptoms that are not treated bcz no medication exist. These negative symptoms are very disabling.
Mine was so blatant that I was mentally ill, but I didn’t get treatment for sz until I was picked up off the street in a nearby city by an ambulance crew.
I have a very poor recollection.
I wish my family had got me help much sooner, but they did not know anything about MI
Same here.
My parents did not know anything about MI in general.
It came as a chock to them.
I was very good to hide my symptoms cause i was afraid of being mad, i had the suspicion i was mad… and it turned out i was.
I was first paranoid at the age of 6. It continued throughout my childhood. I became prodromal bulimic at the age of 15 and I had no friends. At 23, in college, I had my first psychotic breakdown but I hid it. I remained psychotic throughout my 20’s. At 31, I became suicidal and was hospitalized. At age 34, I developed olfactory hallucinations and was diagnosed sza. In my early 40’s, I developed auditory hallucinations and my suicidal depression disappeared. In my mid 50’s, my psychosis went away with meds.
Like a month before God started to talk to me, I was a happy, jubilant teen. But that all changed. It was March of 2018 when I got put off of Hydroxyzine, and once that happened, I broke; it was the breaking point and Hydroxyzine was holding everything back. At least that’s part of my theory. The other part was that I was, of course, genetically predisposed to this illness, but I was also anorexic, so that also might have been a stress factor. Anyway, my prodromal phase was pretty short before the complete break.
Gradually. I started isolating in high school despite being a well liked athlete student. I became dependent on marijuana in college and quickly loss touch with reality. The sz onset came about over the course of about 5 years.
One minute I’m laying on the couch in my parents apartment watching TV and two minutes later I’m 150 miles away in my first psyche ward sharing a room with some guy raving about god and the devil. My dad drives faster than most people.