Hey guys, lately I have been ‘hearing’ things that just didn’t feel right to me. It happens mostly at night or when I’m upset, but it kind of feels like a second internal dialogue. Not sure how else to describe it… I guess It feels/sounds the same in my head as my own internal dialogue but it says things I really would never say or it interrupts my own thinking with a short word or sentence. For example, I had been just thinking about what was happening in school tomorrow (nothing crazy or upsetting) and it just cut in and said my name and then disappeared. Or last night it said “Just go f* yourself”, cutting my internal dialogue completely off and then again disappearing.
Is this what a lot of you (those who hear internal voices) started with? If it isn’t, could you describe what you have experienced with internal voices? Is it nothing to be worried about?
(Also, I do have an appt with my doctor, I’m just trying to get a headstart trying to figure out what is going on)
Voices like that were some of the very first I experienced when I was 14. Like, they would comment, out loud, on my thoughts, critizing them, or they would have conversations between themselves, doing the same. Some of them came out of nowhere to snap at me and then they would leave.
I guess you should see if you experience that as time goes on, and tell if they’re part of your thoughts or if they actually disturb your senses, I guess, but you should definitely tell your doctor about this.
Do you think it is intrusive thoughts? because sometimes the ‘thought’ just kind of pops in my head that nobody likes me or it would be better if I was gone. Those are things I would never think, though. I have never been suicidal or anything like that. Or do you think it is voices, because now it is actually saying something in my head?
I have something like this. I think it is a prodromal symptom. For me it’s about the same volume as my thoughts, but I can “hear” it softly as if through my ears. I am taking a very low dose of Risperdal for it.
Edit: I reread your posts, and my voices actually did start as intrusive thoughts, now that I think about it. It’s good that you’re seeing a doctor about it.
Thank you for sharing your experience. I’m going through the same thing. Odd thing is I was diagnosed sza or sz in 2010 and my psychosis was mainly visual hallucinations.
I’m going to share this with my pdoc if you don’t mind. Even now the voices are arguing with me to do that.
Just from what I’ve learned if they start commanding you to do things seek help. ️
Hallucinations are likely just starting up. mine came on slow too. They also left slow.
Help yourself by doing these:
See a psychiatist.
Never, ever, ever do anything the hallucinations tell you to do. ever.
Use earphones and music to block them. a tv on low may help if they bother you while trying to fall asleep.
Eliminate all other substances (street drugs alcohol) to to calm your hallucinations and to know if your Rx is working or not .
Reduce stress in your life, but do stay active.
Since delusions often come with this, read through strange beliefs section here. You maybe surprized to find others have the same. We may not even recognize our thoughts are strange beliefs.
Mine make dramatic exaggerated explanations about my relevance at all times.
Even positive things are said in tones that indicate they are criticisms or mockery.
“You’re the smartest PERSON EVER!!!”
There are male and female voices… some have long standing personas.
When I really acknowledge that a particular one is going to be around forever… he goes “uggggghoooah… uhhhhhhoooah…” Like it’s got a really guttural depth… really expressing the pleasure it feels in tormenting me.
It just doesn’t make sense that other people would be that insistent night and day for years tormenting me. My delusions have gone as far as considering that it’s more like a voice modulator and anyone in the vicinity can just jump in and extend it and sound the same.
When I’m really on the verge of having nothing but psychosis dominating my experience the male claims to be my best friend since middle school and the female claims to be my first girlfriend. They are both sort of crazy in their own way. I used to have a trend of attracting megalomaniacs… cause I sort of of was one and I’d play fair with anyone have a large hubris so long as they were counter cultural. Not jocks or richies or druggies… or anything like that.
It’s like no… NO! You are rightfully aligned. I see you as a valid conduit for the perpetuation of a more valid human culture in the future! You should feel as good as you possibly can.
I still love them both, but I do hate elements of them.
You’d be stuck speculating just as I do as to the validity of the ascertain it’d be right that the voices I hear are those of the most relevant man and woman from outside my family. My parents are lovely strong people of Kansas… but that doesn’t mean they aren’t fools!
Why was I born contemplating the nature of cyberspace and the human future since I was 7… had a natural knack for computer science which displaces most of those who have a degree in the field… among other psuedo accolades… and then after all the struggling with existence I hit an internal battle that leads to breakdown and the corruption of my brain. When all Iwas trying my best to be was what the modern human being should be in theory… to better establish a positive outlook for future human existence.
All the idealism destroyed… but not devalidated… by other more simple individuals… more alive individuals… just because they don’t get it at all… so I’m always left wondering… do I even get it at all?
The truth is I just am who I am know and I know myself. I’m not wrong in the eyes of anyone, even if they don’t get it… and I just have to work to accept that and the world.
Your describing the same thing that happens with me. Mostly happens at night when I lay down for bed, because when I shut off my mind and don’t think of nothing that’s when they come through.
They’ll say one word sentences also or stuff that doesn’t even make sense. I just had a voice the other night say to me " You should worry allot about me."
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