it’s my circumstances most of all. im tired of sitting here all day. I will occasionally go into town to buy something, and I have appointments with my nurse and every 3 months with my pdoc. but that’s pretty much it. i don’t think an AD is what i need. i need a different life. sleeping in helps. less hours in the day so i have less downtime, slept in today until 10am.
it’s like i need a little mini vacation every 3 months, and i need to go out to a restaurant 2 or 3 times a week or have a drink once a week not to get depressed. when i don’t do those things. it’s just life here where i no longer enjoy the music as much, or tv or movies. even being online gets old to me.
i don’t know what im going to do about it. tried to talk mom and dad into letting me move back in with them so i wouldn’t be lonely. but they want me to stay in my own place.
yeah i would like a pet. im thinking cats would be cheaper to own. so maybe a cat.
my pdoc offered me an AD last time i saw her but i told her i would wait on that. i see her again in june, but i still don’t think im ready for an AD. usually my mood will lift eventually but it’s been 3 down days in a row. i think im going to wait another 3 months before deciding if i want to try an AD or not. maybe things will get better again.
I think getting a cat is a good idea. They’re good company but also very self-sufficient. Just feed and water them and scoop the litter box and you’ve got a friend for life.
Can you get a peer support specialist? He or she can go to a restaurant with you however often they’re able to meet you.
Also, try volunteering. You can do it for just a few hours as often as your able. It gets you out of the house and feels good.
I got hit with a severe depression after my second psychosis after I stabilized and came back down to reality. I had a tough month dealing with it but eventually started taking Wellbutrin to take care of it. I started with 200mg and eventually now I take 50mg. It has helped me a lot with my mood and motivation and on top of that I haven’t gained any weight. The depression seems to be going away and I hope I can get off the AD completely. The less medication the better. Hopefully it works for you as well as it has for me.
Kinda sounds like you’re bored. Pets are a big help. They don’t take the place of people but they give me a reason to get up in the morning. Do you get out to take walks or ride a bike? You might meet someone in the neighborhood, someone to walk with or go out for a coke or coffee. I used to hang out at the public library; it’s free but a change of scenery and around people. Also, even if you don’t read much, they have lots of books with photos and short writings in them(less than magazines). Lots of stuff to do for free that will break up the monotony. Hope you make it without the AD.
Volunteer at the senior center or for veteran’s. That will give you a big boost and a purpose. You would really be helping out too. Maybe just one day a week so you don’t get overwhelmed. When I’m all done with the move and get my routine all set up I want to volunteer for the seniors, I love them so much. Crap I practically am one now lol.
I think the first place I will apply at is the pizza place in town. they are hiring now.
hopefully I can find somewhere that will allow me only 20 hours.
my caseworker recommended working at a fast food place. I’ve worked at pizza places before delivering pizzas but this time I want to work in the kitchen. I don’t want to put a lot of miles on my car and add more wear and tear to it.
and also it’s only about 3 miles away so it wouldn’t be much of a commute. most of the adults in this community commute 15-50 miles one way into the cities for work. so I would be happy to not have to do that.
the only thing im worried about is my hair falls out some times, and I want to grow it long, don’t want hair getting into the food. I don’t feel like shaving it for a while. gonna keep it long for a couple years. so maybe I will just get a job at the casino instead.
