These are common patterns I’ve noticed in MY life in regards to when I experience specific types of delusions. Other people could be different, I don’t know for sure. Anyhow these are the conclusions I’ve drawn from my experiences.
-Grandiose Delusion: Had during times of low self-esteem, felt I was plain and average, so delusions rose up where I was special and deeply unique in some way (ie next messiah, god, whatever)
-Delusions of Power: Different from grandiose, grandiose I was center of universe vs Power I was very strong and had all these secret abilities. Arose during times where I felt very insecure and scared constantly due to my paranoia, form of self-defense due to unstable mental environment (I imagine people with unstable outer environments may experience these as well)
,ex. Was a powerful werewolf
-Grandiose Paranoid Delusion: A combination of the two types. I’ve never really had a solely paranoid delusion. The grandiose paranoid type seemed to combine my feelings of inadequacy with my high levels of anxiety (anxiety creates paranoia for me). In this way I was very special somehow (ex. Chosen mother of antichrist) and as a result I was in grave danger and being hunted down by evil (Satan was going to take me to Hell)
Those are the main types of delusions I’ve had. What ones have you experienced? Do you think you experienced them for similar reasons or different ones? Let’s reflect!
I’ve had a number of delusional thoughts over the years while ill. I generally don’t like bringing them up because, still to this day, I feel ashamed and embarrassed of them. I’ve believed that I could control the weather, control people’s minds, and cause things to happen by force of will alone. I’ve had religious delusions where I was sent by God to cleanse the world, I’ve gotten caught up in believing in “Elder Gods” and other fictional things, and I’ve believed that I could foresee the future. I wish I could forget all that stuff but I doubt I ever will.
I notice when I’m doing something immoral, people’s faces will stand out and it feels like I’m being watched and judged. I have a lot of anxiety about my family and my step-father in particular, and whenever we’re together, thoughts like “he doesn’t like you” or “your parents will be split by divorce” pop into my head. Sometimes I think my step-father pays my sister too much attention, and thoughts like “he’s in love with her” occur to me.
Sometimes I’ll get a feeling of grandiosity, but I quickly turn my thoughts in another direction.
Things have been peacefully quiet the last few weeks, so I’m grateful. When I’m psychotic it’s an entirely different matter. Luckily it’s a pretty rare occurrence.
I’ve had delusional thoughts of where I thought I was a prophet and God. I also thought my uncle was molesting my daughter.I don’t like to think about them because I know they weren’t me… Meaning I wasn’t in my right state of mind.Thank God for medicine.
i get delusions when i watch movies , i take on the character in the movie or a similar character…
i do manage to keep it to myself…but it feels wierd and can stay with me a few days…
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I sometimes think everything is this huge conspiracy and I’m the only one who can’t crack the code. And everyone knows. I get pretty deep into it, and it’s exhausting. Clarity is nice though.
I also have a feeling that my delusions come from real life connections and experiences.
If I think about it, I can sort of begin to see where some of them came from… even the one about kidnappers.
I’m still fighting the one about kidnappers… Actually… I’m still fighting a few of them.
I’m guessing when life was uncertain… that was why I felt the wind was telling me the future.
I know that some of my perceptions of things created my delusions and tied into one big knot of cause and effect that I’ve only now been able to face and untangle.
The struggle for now is… if it’s a positive and good thing… is it a delusion?
It’s still a delusion, it just doesn’t really do any harm. Like I know my werewolf delusion was mostly exciting and fun, and it was also a great coping mechanism for my fears since I thought I was so strong nothing could hurt me. I don’t think they’re always bad, but they’re always lies, haha.
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