I needed the kick start of good meds. I was so apathetic and motionless and depressed and panicked that I did nothing but my little part time job four hours a day and then hide in bed the other 20.
It was sort of a chicken and egg sort of deal. What came first, the glimmer of positive thinking that made me try a different med combo, or did the different med combo give me a glimmer of positive thinking that helped me stay med compliant?
When I was more compliant I had a drop energy for a bit of therapy which helped me out of the depression to stay more med compliant which helped me take the therapy more seriously… and finally I was in an upward spiral.
But I needed the kick start first. Thus far I’m thinking the Med kick start had to come first. Then it was my brain work taking over after that.
Now, the meds are slowly… very slowly working towards lower doses, the therapy has amped up bit and the hard work just keeps coming. But I’m more willing to accept help now. That also lets me see that people are on my side, which gives me some hope which helps in the upward spiral.
One step at a time my friend… one step at a time.