I got in some situations in high school where I just didn’t belong. It was awkward as hell. One time in particular. My downstairs neighbor was friendly. Too friendly I later learned. But for a awhile he was a family friend.
And he happened to be friendly with this family of 4 brothers who went to my school. The oldest brother was in 11th grade and he was starting quarterback for the varsity football team. Which meant he was one of the most popular guys in high school. He was good looking too.
My neighbor used to visit his house and he took me over there one time. I was like a fish out of water. I had no business being over there. It was just crazy. The whole family was good looking and popular and I don’t want to put myself down but I wasn’t popular or good looking. And here we all are in their living room and I wasn’t talking to anyone or being friendly. I was just in over my head. I felt crazy as hell and nobody probably liked me or thought much of me.
The other time that sticks out in my memory was when my friend took me to a basketball game at school on a Friday night with his friends. His friends were all these really cool, good looking people with girlfriends and everybody knew them and once again It was in over my head. I was squished in the back seat with a couple of them.
None of them talked to me and I didn’t talk to them. I tried to fake it a little and pretend I belonged but they were two inches away from me and just ignored me. I had no business being there. Oh man, that was painful…