Hey everyone. So I’m in a weird place.
I’ve been like 80-90% voice free since going on geodon, it’s been a miracle drug for me.
I’m so happy to have found it.
But…I’m missing the angels, how kind they could be, and I’m missing feeling special that they talked to me. I don’t miss the unending picking on me some of the spirits did. Missing feeling chosen, and I miss some of my abilities they gave me.
Feels like I’ve lost a big part of myself.
Any advice? Any similar stories?
I think feeling like that is more common than you think.
For instance I’m no longer “possessed” by serpents and there’s a big part of me that misses that.
I just get on with things though. Losing a super power always sucks I guess 
I think we only remember the good things about being that way and conveniently forget the misery it brought.
I miss the excitement of being followed and part of a big supernatural conspiracy.
When you put it that way, it sounds like an abusive relationship, victim of verbal abuse for years, and I’m remembering the good times.
People often seek out fear for that rush, I can see missing the rush
I definitely dont miss the headaches that came with sensory overload or the crippling fear though that it eventually led to.
I can understand why.
I don’t miss the endless picking on me the voices did
Yea psychosis has its pros and cons, mostly cons though.
You’ll get used to your new mental silence. Takes a while, just give it time.
It takes getting used to… life can be depressing for a few months once you gain insight or hallucinate less. I personally would love to have them gone, I just want to be back to the way I was before I got this.
@Ooorgle, I feel ya. It’s strange but I felt kinda special too for being psychotic. And when it all ended, it kinda left a void. Like I wasn’t special anymore. That is a real loss. On the one hand I was thrilled that it was gone but on the other hand, I kinda missed it a little bit.
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