Its not impossible to find someone who fits your personality etc you just have to put yourself out there a bit and be open humble lovely guy you are. She will come along when your ready.
Im lucky i was living with mine in a shared house when i was 18 years old. He was hard work at first but has mellowed with age. Im grateful and treat him well. Always have been kind to him
It has never stopped feeling real for me. I have just trained myself to automatically recognize that it is the illness, that it is of zero importance, and I keep on steppin’. CBT is a life-changer. I highly recommend it.
I’m treatment-resistant and it became clear that I would never be free of positive symptoms at livable doses of APs so I had to find a way to live with the voices and delusions. It’s possible. I still need a baseline level of meds to maintain insight, but I no longer have to megadose APs to the point where I’m a drooling lump who struggles to get out a sentence.
I’m not blowing smoke man… Your post and victory over your illness is inspiring.
It’s a standoff, not a victory. I turn my back on that fxxxer for one minute and it has me. You can’t ever stop pushing back against SZ or SZa when you have it. I keep telling people that if your illness is relentless then the only way for you to have a life is to become more relentless. Recovery is not something that falls out of the sky and bonks you on the head. You gotta chase that mutha and then hang on for dear life when you grab it.
Thanks bro…I guess I have a name for it. Funny story…I was afraid of the number 3 like 4 years ago. I saw it everywhere not just the symbol but the actual set. I looked it up because it started to really mess me up and I guess it’s just the easiest set to understand/ grasp or something. It’s been a while so I don’t remember but that crap was pretty ridiculous lol
Today I was going to help my parents order TV from a vendor, but my own decoder suddenly broke down today and I had to order new TV from myself.
NOW…it’s easy to let the mind think this was not a coincidence. I mean the reason I went into psychosis in the first place was because I started questioning why things like this happen until suddenly nothing was a coincidence anymore. Everything was some sort of secret plot…except it wasn’t. That’s why I make sure to not let my mind slip away into these unconstructive thoughts, because then you lose. The last thing I need is to slip into psychosis again.
So your psychosis started with the coincidences too … yea til after 7 years maybe I’m ready to start to heal. How long before you had insight into what was actually happening?
I’d say I had better control after about two years. But it took 10 years to really come to terms with it.
I like coincidences, I don’t think they are evil.
Not sure what they mean.
Someone once said they are God acting but remaining anon. Might have been Einstein.
I don’t know about that.
When I’m not upset about them I often think they are just a beautiful condition… random … God/ultimate at play. Then I start thinking even our suffering is Gods art. Who else would play such dangerous games but God lol
Yea life is unfair. I don’t really believe in an all powerful, God personality creator being. It’s nonsense to me.
If anything comes closest to a God type thing , I think it’s humanity
Why do you think that?
Because humanity has the capacity to change things the most. From the top of my head, anyway.
The law will be rolling into town now
C’mon guys. We don’t do the God talk here. If you want help with religious delusions, that’s fine, but we can’t just have general discussions about religion or God.
@Zoe @anon31960475 Have any of you guys been to or seen outer space? Like, the view of the planet earth is phenomenal. Not to mention what the earth looks like from the lunar surface. Experiencing zero-gravity where liquid turns into spheres of liquid due to surface tension in a no gravity environment. Needing to have a light suction near your private area to intake your pee & pooh. Eating floating food & drinks.
I had an experience when I was about 10 years old where my minds eye saw the universe expanding out from myself to the extreme. It was insane! It made me cry.
Sorry…I wasn’t being religious.
They might have been trying to time their knocking to avoid disrupting your meals and just missed.