today i felt a real break through in my recovery and i am hoping i will continue to improve in the head department,
i went to a service as usual and i felt really open minded like i was totally open and clear in my head like i haven’t felt for a long time, my head was totally devoid of any stress and i just felt free from the burden of schiz and i also felt like i was at peace with myself but it didn’t last long maybe about 20-30 seconds but it was something for me to cherish and it gives me hope that what i am doing is helping me spiritually and mentally.
so i am hoping i will get this feeling again and that it will last longer next time, i think when we get mental illness in our heads it kinda clouds our vision inside our head and weighs us down spiritually and emotionally, i am trying to break through this vapour to open my eyes with a clear mind,
tbh nearly every time i go i feel better and it is always something new, i love trying to sing altho i still haven’t found my voice yet, sometimes i will sing sometimes not it depends so you really need to judge for yourself whats comfortable, i also sometimes just shut my eyes and listen to relax and try to take it in, when you are listening to other people talk its easier i think than thinking all the time it helps the brain relax.
sorry i just felt like talking about my experience today and how it helps me.