Why can’t I be social? I want my old self to come back. 
at work I keep to myself. Yesterday when school was out for my son there was a picnic with all the kids and parents. I kept to myself there too. Everyone seemed so happy and joyful. I felt like an outsider. Like an alien. But I stuck around for my son. Don’t want him to feel left out. He has a lot of friends and is popular.
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Are you always like that after your diagnosis,or is it happen just recently?
I always kept to myself,nice to know you and hope you overcome this problem soon
It’s hard to socialize in settings like that… everyone is there with their family… I’d feel like an outsider too.
I wish I had an idea to help you with that. It’s easy to be friendly when other people start the conversation, but it’s hard to know where to begin.
I’d say… give yourself some congratulations on being there for your son and making him happy.
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Hi Comatose! I have had these same feelings for most of my life. I just try to deal with them the best I can. I am very shy and unsociable myself.
I’ve been like this since my first psychosis. I USED TO BE social and out going. I was the first one to start a conversation. I used to like being in center of attention and was like a fish in water (swedish expression, like feeling home). It’s like I’ve become the inverted me. I’ve been turned inside out.
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I’ve kind of created a life for myself apart from the normal, everyday life of other people. That can be a source of serenity for me, but it also makes it harder for me to interact socially, which can be frustrating. I think the key is a balance between social and solitary life.
Balance is good. But how to make it? 
Find what works best for you. It will take some trial and error. There was this one girl I took an interest in, and she turned me down roundly. After she did that I started watching her, and I was so glad she turned me down. She would have driven me crazy.
good on you for staying there at the picnic, for your son… 
i admire you…
take care 
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I made a lot of friends over cigarettes. Just sayin