Feeling incredibly unstable and unpredictable today. My anxiety has been so bad, feeling like it’s difficult to breathe. I can’t get ahold of my good friend and haven’t heard from him in a couple days, I’m worried that someone hurt him or that he’s unwell, I really need his support right now. Now I really don’t know what to do, I haven’t stopped pacing since I got off work, everything seems so loud and overwhelming. Sorry to rant I’m just not sure of what else to do. My insurance doesn’t cover anything in relation to psychiatric care including hospitalizations and I really can’t afford to go to the hospital because that would mean my employer would find out and I would lose my job and being 2000 miles from any family and living where I work I would have no where to go and no way to get anywhere because my car is getting it’s transmission fixed which is taking most of my savings. Don’t know that to do, I’m sorry to rant here just felt like I needed to get this out, just for someone or anyone to read.
Sorry you’re having a hard time Hanna.
Regarding your employer, I believe it’s against the law to fire someone because they have a mental illness.
I’m a full time working student, I don’t know if “laws” really apply to these sorts of jobs
If you’re doing ‘casual jobs’ then it’s easy enough to find another one.
The type of job is hard to explain, it’s not exactly a casual job. They are hard to get into and even harder to find good ones. I love the people I work for and I don’t want to compromise anything with them, but I guess their last working student had bipolar disorder and they were fine with that so maybe it wouldn’t be as bad as I’m thinking. Just paranoid about every little thing at the moment.
It probably is illegal to fire someone because of discrimination, of age gender race or mental health. But sure it does happen.
Edit: if you’re doing a good job then they will want to keep you, regardless of your diagnosis.
The last time I was hospitalized I thought I had been fired from my job and couldn’t possibly have insurance anymore. When they were signing me in I just told them to bill me. That was of course after I told them I would just walk home and they told me no. I arrived in an ambulance.
It was part of my delusion. Never did get a bill. It was 100% covered.
I hope all goes well and you get to keep your job.
I’m not delusional about my insurance, my insurance really doesn’t cover this sort of thing, it’s Christian Healthcare Ministries so not even insurance really, and I can’t sign up for other insurance because it’s not open enrollment and because I had a real job most of last year I don’t qualify for medicaid despite making $600 a month, my family doesn’t know I’m unwell, they can’t know. They didn’t believe me when I told them when I was younger, and I know they will stop talking to me if they find out I’m unwell again, they don’t want me on medication because they think I’m not actually mentally ill. A year in corrective boarding school when I was younger taught me what I could and couldn’t tell my family. Some of my family is visiting next week and they can’t find out. Just waiting for the benzos to kick in right now and maybe I can ride this out
Okay. Well can you get in to see your doctor and perhaps get an adjustment?
I’m going to call my doctor tomorrow, the office is closed now. I’m going to tell my roommate what’s going on when she gets home. Just need to make it through tonight is all, I don’t want to tell her what’s going on in my head right now but she know’s I have sz so perhaps I will let her know and maybe she can help me just for now.
Are you over 18? (Asking since you said no Medicaid )
Yes I’m over 18, I actually just applied for Medicaid and I’m waiting to see whether or not I’m qualified. I should be but it just depends on what information they have. I made it through last night and called my pdoc and left a message. Feeling like I might be able to make it through.
That’s why .::.: your not qualified…it’s only for : residents who receive SSI (Supplemental Security Income) through the Social Security Administration. Patients who are disabled or over the age of 65. Children under 18
In our state laws it states that if you make 135% or less than the national poverty level per month then an individual does qualify without a disability. I guess I shouldn’t say I applied for medicaid, I applied through my state medical assistance program, I thought they were the same, but maybe each state has different laws? I got ahold of my doc and I have an appointment for next week, she also talked to me about applying, apparently she used to work at a welfare office and she said I definitely qualify.
I’m in Florida … I’m somewhat familiar with Medicaid here … if you have been deemed disabled by the SSA then you should qualify for some type of med ins normally with SSA…Other than that you have to be under 18,over 65 , be pregnant or have a child in the household under the age of 18. There are options … Good luck
I’m sure they will get you on the right track …
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