I have difficulty with this.
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I’m very good at articulating how I feel. I don’t know if I express feelings well; I’m good at hiding when I’m feeling bad. I want to get back to putting emotion into art. I used to be amazing at that.
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It’s not that I can’t express my emotions, its that I don’t really have them in the first place, at least I don’t experience them very deeply or very often. Most of the time I lack emotion. “The flat effect” it’s a negative symptom of schizophrenia.
I do have a pretty good sense of humour and I love to laugh, and sometimes I laugh my ass off, but that is about it. I don’t really get sad or angry or anything else too often.
When I was in the outpatient group at the hospital they said there are “rationally minded people” and “emotionally minded people”. I am the former. They said the goal was to bring both into harmony and become a “wise minded person”.
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Do you miss having the emotions?
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I was never too emotional before hand. Even when I was a kid I remember someone, I don’t want to say who, saying “he doesn’t have any feelings” when they thought I was out of eat shot. That’s not totally accurate, when my last dog died I was really sad and had tears in my eyes. It’s just for the most part I have never been very emotional, I guess it was just the way I was born.
Sometimes I wish I was more emotional, maybe I would understand people better, but then sometimes I look at people who are governed by their emotions and am dumbfounded when they say and do irrational things.
It’s like they said in the group session, you have to combine your rationality with your emotions, bring them into harmony and form a wise mind, but its difficult because most people are one way or the other. Kind of like some people are left handed and some are right handed.
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I don’t know that I’m overly emotional - I probably am; I’ve done my share of irrational things - but I’m definitely over-passionate, if that makes sense. And that’s what I’m missing from my life since I started the AP meds. I just miss myself so much.
I can still get reallllllly angry, tho!
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Not at all. I was raised with the understanding that if I cried or showed fear, I’d be given a beating to show me what I should fear. Now that I’m an adult, I still have trouble letting go and crying
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I guess so, when i have something to express.
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Yes and no. I’m not comfortable talking about emotions with most people, but when it is my neuropsych or a close friend, I can open up for the most part.
Feelings like grief are so powerful, I can sometimes try to push them away. But they always catch up to you in the end, and that’s a good thing in the end
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Not so much. Just a simmering pot underneath lol
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Some people are emotional, but its ok stil if you arent.
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Good or bad
They need to be felt
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I get emotions sometimes, and if they’re not really, really strong, I cannot seem to process them in the moment
What I understand of them comes to me with hindsight.
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I have given up on being a normal person with emotions, I am too damaged by the sz
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It’s funny, I am the same. I often don’t know what I’m feeling, until I look back on it with some clarity
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Sorry to hear that @LilyoftheValley . Those childhood experiences can shape us for life
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Yeah, I’ve know people like that, nothing wrong with that. Everyone is different. I’m sure people that are very emotional people will think who cares if something is rational it feels right so they do it, and would disagree with me because I’ll take a more rational approach. To each their own.
As an example I worked with this girl, I was about 20 and she was about 23. Her and I, along with another couple went on a trip together. We shared a bed and she wanted to have sex with me, she was definitely hot and super horny but had slept with over 100 guys at that time, I’m not judging her, I really don’t care, but she she was always acting on her emotions (horniness) but to me I decided not to sleep with her because I am scared of diseases and to me it wasn’t rational to take that risk, but I was very tempted because she was gorgeous. We went out to a club the next day and she picked up some other dude and slept with him.
Our brain has 2 hemispheres and usually one is dominant. Some people are more creative/artsy/emotional (right brained people) and others are more scientific/rational/logical (left brained people). Just the way our biology is. I’m more of a left brained person.
I can relate with that. I don’t feel I am the same person I was before I was on them. Mental illness itself changed me somewhat, and then the AP’s added to that.
I can get annoyed sometimes, my mom is a really emotional person and she says things I find irrational and I get annoyed and correct her, but I don’t get reallllllly angry as you put it, lol
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When I was young, if anything, I was too emotional to the point where it was pathological. Today, I show little emotion. But lately, I’ve noticed I’ve been rather a little more emotional than usual. Emotional meaning teary.
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