It’s been over 24 hours since I’ve had any alcohol or coffee… I was drinking a lot of coffee throughout my work shifts… and then on sunday I got good and boozed… which was regrettable enough for me to start wanting to shut that stuff out of my life for a few days.
It’s just funny to run into the dependency issue… that physically my body is uncomfortable without the caffeine.
I fell asleep early and now I’m awake at 4 am… and I’ve got too many pressures in my head to ignore and focus properly.
I know this feeling will probably pass after I get a good nap in later.
It’s just funny though… the human body really is chemically frail… that even though they are clearly destructive presences at times… the body enjoys having these chemicals around… it adjusts to their presence.
The detox is such a gauntlet… it’s like starting a whole new life… except it’s easy to distrust that the challenge phase will ever pass.
It’s a screwy thing to accept dependence though. I really don’t like selling out to that, because I don’t have strong addictions… I have substance abuse issues… which lead me to get carried away when I embrace that coffee, booze, and smokes are a long term part of life.
I’m basically left fighting for sober distance from them every week before all the different elements of life drive me back.
Alcohol and coffee at once. You’ve got a toughie on your hands! Just thought about it…I don’t drink either cuz drs say nope plus, I used to drink myself into oblivion. Haven’t drank since 05 and not alcoholic just was sz and miserable etc…etc…never will touch stuff again…reminds me of my raging alcoholic mother. I’m better than that
It’s always good to hear someone has won that fight. I live in a college town. I work at a bar/ restaurant… everyone I know is always on something or another. It’s not the healthiest environment for me… but I am just going to treat that like part of the challenge.
Nah, not the healthiest environment, but if someone wants alcohol they’ll get it no matter where they live. I tried to kill myself with drinking too much and woke up covered in charcoal, but that didn’t stop me…I was in such a dark place back then…
Yeah I just binge drink. I enjoy the feeling every once in a while… but I’m well too familiar with the negatives of those states… namely the smell… and that feeling like I’m already asleep even though I’m still awake.
I really wish I could make it through a shift of work without the coffee… if I manage to do that I’ll be proud of myself.
It sucks to get off work at 1 am with nothing to do though. I’ll have my own apartment soon and that’ll allow me to have a bit more freedom of choice in my activities.
Honestly tackling both at same time is ballsy. I actually have acquired long qts now so a drink would literally kill me, and meds to help cause insomnia and anxiety…I’m not even supposed to eat chocolate lol
I do this just about every week almost… you’ll think I’m real ballsy when you account for the fact that I’m almost out of cigarettes too. I could get more, but waiting just tossing the day to a detox feels more pleasing.
All the ■■■■ I experience in life + schizophrenia… I need that sobriety for the ice to start breaking and for me to get psychological distance from the contrast.
I’ve got some money issues and proving that I do have self control really helps to keep the stress of that at bay.
