This is what a voice in my mind keeps saying. My thoughts want to escape my head. My mind is crumbling.
I can’t figure out my mind. Are there beings? I don’t know. Maybe, maybe not. All my thoughts aren’t against me I don’t think. Only some, unless the nice ones are pretending. Maybe nothing is there. I sense a supernatural force in my mind. I guess the beings are real. No matter how hard I try, I can’t stop believing in them.
I have mental problems again. This time time the cause is falling inlove with someone who is not a match. I feel like im trying to get normal thoughts and then the vision of his perfection is infront of my face. Im his prisoner.
The worst thing is the emotional.pain.
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I’m sorry @anon62371846. I don’t know how to help but I hope the best for you. Being a prisoner to someone sounds bad. Try not to lose yourself to others. 
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Thanks…my head is spinning from thinking about him from moning to evening going circles. I cant get out of it. And the awful thing is i dont want to get out of it. Im in a love hell. I have to tell someone cause i will go crazy. But theres noone to tell cause noone can help me.
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That’s how I feel about the beings.
I’m sorry you are in love hell. I have never been in such a situation. Try to show yourself some compassion. I wish you only the best.
You should try writing… Everything, anything… You’re going to find some answers… Believe me 
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Thanks, you’re right. I do need to write more. I used to write a lot, to get my ideas and everything out of my head. Somewhere along the way, I lost my motivation to do so. I’m not sure what happened.
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Sometimes when I get overwhelmed I break the top of my head open and escape into the echelons of my brain. Then I close it and shut myself off from the rest of my brain to get away from all that noise. Somehow this makes me feel spiritually transcended. Even if it is just all made up it gives me enough of a break that I can calm down a little. Only problem is I can’t do it on purpose, my brain does it automatically when I’m too overwhelmed. I think it’s a form of dissociation. It’s kinda cool though. You just made me think of it when you said “break the wall, open your mind” maybe that’s what the voice wants you to do, transcend, rise above your problems for a little while.
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See if you can write at least one thought daily… Maybe “reading your mind” can help you organize your thoughts and who knows…it can help others too… You know you can always share
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Wow… The mind is powerful 
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That’s interesting. One of the beings likes to scratch at the top of my head (from the inside though) with a green finger and purple fingernail. Well, I suppose it could be any of the beings, not just one. It is mentally painful.
I will try to do it tonight. I used to just write what I was thinkng as I thought it. I could do that again. I have no motivation to do it, so it would take some willpower.
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Break the wall… Your mind is already open
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Breaking the wall would (supposedly) allow the beings to physically interact with me through hallucinations. I’m not sure I want that. My mind is not fully open though I don’t think.
I’m sorry. I can’t convince myself otherwise.
Of course I totally understand… Nothing that makes you feel uncomfortable. I would like to know how you control the limits… I would like to know also if you would give away the capacity that you have of being in contact with them… I mean… What do you think they are and what they want…? Sorry… I’m just extremely curious 
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I have my theories about the beings, but truthfully I know nothing, just that they’re there and that they want to break the wall. I’m not sure about giving up contact with them. I don’t know that I can, and even if I could, I’m not sure it would be the right thing to do. I don’t know what to do or think. I feel confused and chaotic. I’m sorry for not having any answers.
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Sorry misunderstood the title.
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I’m not sure that’s possible. The best way I can describe it is a wall that keeps thoughts in my head.
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