I’ll let the doc coordinate the switch but it’ll probably be quick I’m still only on 2 mgs. It’s building up to the new dose. I don’t want to go through a drastic shift.
■■■■■■■ drugs.
Damned if I know what’s thrilling about living in terror. Pass the pills, please.
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No terror here.
I’m just gonna let the doc decide on this one.
Ok…2 many words there…
Yes
I was 19 not wait I had just turned 20. I wasn’t drinking because I thought I was an alcoholic and was clean. So I felt like getting real ■■■■■■ up. I was on a warmup dose of 80mg Geodon a night and it wasn’t doing ■■■■ except making me sleep at night like a normal person and making me constipated so I skipped it, went to spend the night with my clique and they were getting hella ■■■■■■ up.
So I skipped the Geodon and took a hit off some weed, and holy ■■■■■■■ ■■■■ was I psychotic as possible. It was unforgettable and the next day I went to the gym without having slept at all and over trained and tore some muscles and was then out for two months sitting on my ass studying human behavioral biology and playing video games and ■■■■.
Lesson learned: it was fun for the first five minutes…three days of feeling ■■■■■■ in the head was not fun.
I’ve been pondering this one for a while,
For me… I didn’t stop the meds because I was board with reality… I didn’t know how to cope without the head circus… I’ve had my head circus for so long.
When I was 19 to 20 it didn’t seem like I was getting much coping help other then more meds…
I’m glad this study exist… it’s a glimmer that docs are thinking out of the box… working with patients and starting to ask them why… instead of TELLING them why.
For me… when my voices got zapped out of my head when I was young… it was so unhinging…
I knew how to cope with my head my way… and to have an external force… (meds and doctors and ECT) change my brain so dramatically so quickly was very scary.
I went off the meds and back onto drugs so I could get the head I know back. I wasn’t board… I was freaked out by drastic change.
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Many people with bipolar disorder, that experience euphoric mania sometimes get off of their meds so that they can feel euphoric - pure joy again.
Unfortunately there is usually no fun or euphoria connected to a SZ psychotic episode - many people drop their meds because of the debilitating side effects.
I dropped of of Navane decades ago because it dampened my emotions too much - I was young back then
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I’ve heard that about euphoric mania before, from friends. But I’m not massively tempted to go and try some of my own weird experiences, it’s just not worth it.
But I’ve been determined to get off my meds for a couple of years now, if it wasn’t for the insomnia which keeps showing up I’d have gone and done it. Let’s hope the really slow withdrawal schedule does the trick. Six months in, another eight to go.
When i last went up against an episode i made sure i had zopiclone on hand. I used it a couple of times before landing in the hospital and it did the trick. I used it in the hospital too. I find when psychotic i can only sleep once every two days and thats with the help of a sleeping pill.
i think half the problem lies with the psychiatrist going for too high a dose which leaves people emotionless and zombiefied. i#ve come off meds for other reasons too, such as weight gain and lack of verbal communication, loss of personality. it’s not just me that noticed it. my mum would say it was like talking to a piece of furniture, ie: no response. so i think getting the dose right is paramount. if you want someone to stick to meds then you have to leave them with enough of their core self to enjoy living.
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if i could be hypomanic all the time that would be wonderful. but it never stays that way. its like flirting with the devil.
Boredom is my middle name. I think that’s a product of doing very little and having almost no social interaction with other people . Social interaction/skills deficits,low drive and motivation, paranoia and chronic severe social anxiety all play their negative parts.
Would I like to have a more stimulating life?-yes. However I would not want the horror that is often part and parcel of full blown/severe psychosis as a part of experiencing periods of benign stimulation.
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John Berryman said, “you know, friends, life is boring.”
Get used to it. What is there but the backdrop of a morose, unfulfilled nature that won’t strike up anything but melancholy.
I once swore the sunset was the total sum of my depression. I was waiting to get tires put on my car,
and sat on a bench outside. the thought of consumerism and depression went hand in hand at the time.
My life growing up was far from boredom, it was constant chaos, but not my me or my doings, rather a couple of wild brothers.
When I can say I’m bored, then I’ve found my happy place…I crave boredom because I rarely visited the place.
So to stop my meds because I’m bored? not likely.
More like stop my meds because I was fat and stupid.
A few months after my first psychotic episode, i ended up in what my doctor called a post-psychotic depression. That sucked a lot. During those days I did occasionally long for the psychosis. Not that it was the best thing I could think of… it was more that I just wanted to feel anything again, anything, and in psychosis, at least something is happening… ah well i stuck to my meds. This depressive epsiode has played a role in deciding to come off meds later, but the aim was not to get psychotic again.
That’s kind of a different problem. Being unfulfilled is an issue with your life circumstances, not necessarily to do with meds or post psychosis depression. It’s something you should tackle, letting that kind of thing fester just leads to unhappiness and maybe more serious real depression.
Oh, no, you took that all wrong.
interesting read! I’ve heard people say that once they take the meds, it gets too quiet in their thoughts and mind (I don’t think my mind could ever be too quiet:)). But I noticed that a lot of us are very creative and talented in the arts (writing, crafting, poetry, drawing), so psychosis could be a factor contributing to that creativity! Once the voices are gone, the psychosis is gone, and the creativity is gone. Things could seem boring and almost like something is missing…very interesting!
I definitely take life more seriously when believing in delusions because I have to be extra carefull all around, but then they become unbearable involving serious consequences (going to hell etc…) if taken too seriously and left unmedicated for too long.The medications do not cancel out the delusions, they just diminish the bad effects on my more normal ways of thinking.