Before sz I was a very up beat person, I was the girl who if I was going out I HAD TO wear makeup, have my favorite clothes on (except work Wal-Mart had a dress code back then) I did diy skin care (mostly a sugar scrub for my dark pits) I went out alone, I washed my face and brushed my teeth both night and day, I showered or bathed daily, I did self care and I looked good doing it I was also a size 7 in women’s clothes (now I’m a size 18 huge jump) I felt I had purpose I loved myself
Now I do little to none of that stuff sz sucks and I hate it I wanna get back to who I was and beyond but I seem unable to… I wanna be me again
Oh your still really young. I know its hard to keep on top of self care with sz and negs i struggle too. Just do what you can and try simplifying it so say use easy applying makeup nothing too complicated, like tinted BB cream and a bit of lipstick or gloss. I just put a bit of strengthing serum on my hair and leave it wavy. I have hardly any motivation but i do moisturise face & hands daily.
@Ducky when I feel good enough to do makeup I usually just do fake lashes and lipstick I think I’m going to try and do more especially if keto makes me feel how it usually does
I used to always wear makeup too, had to have my hair done. I wore a size 4 when I used to work. I had all these suits and dresses I hadn’t even worn, and left them in a car in storage, that needed an engine and never got my things back.
Me too. I am currently the same. We can do this. I have seen glimpses of success. In all areas of life. In the moment so much to notice about myself that I am regaining. In the future I look forward to keeping it up. And new experiences with life.
Yeah those were some good times. I mostly miss my relationships and the laughter and stuff. I live in Arkansas and pretty much walk daily. I don’t mind the heat though. I spent most my time outside growing up I think maybe that’s why weather doesn’t bother me. Being able to where clothes I like(dressing up) gives me motivation to shower and get dressed. I like the winter cause it gives me more options on what I can wear. In the summer it’s just pants and a t shirt.
@TheSecondVariety I grew up in Arkansas I went outside a lot as a kid but not as much anymore and I passed out at silver dollar city before so I have to watch how hot I get… doesn’t help I’m over 100lbs overweight so heat hits me hard
Yeah I might be an anomaly. I’m not able to do hard labor out in 100 degree weather for too long. Found that out last summer mowing. But I don’t mind taking a walk. Just gotta bring plenty of water. I guess mainly for me the heat isn’t as uncomfortable as it is to some people I know.
We used to run around in the summer and play tackle football or tennis for a couple hours or lay in the sun working on our tans. Or I would work out in the sun with a scythe chopping weeds for a couple of hours. Now, I get hour long lectures from my house counselor and others about heat exhaustion and 3 page warnings about heat stroke and 5 different cool-off zones like libraries to go to when it gets too hot. When it was hot when I was a kid you dealt with it, you went outside and played frisbee. Now you get heat advisory days in the news, we used to just call them hot days.
Hahaha… that so true. I reminds me of the battle ball ban.
These days, some places ban musical chairs because it could be exclusionary…when I was a kid we used to hurl hard rubber balls at each other in an attempt to kill the other team off. lol.
A lot of people want to go back to who or what they were before schizophrenia but schizophrenia is the very reason you are what you are like now. It’s kind of wishful thinking to think your schizophrenia is not going to affect you now and that you can magically go back to what you were previously.
I hate to be pessimistic but neglected self care is common in schizophrenia and a real thing and where you used to bathe and take care of your looks as second nature before schizophrenia you might have to face the fact that it would be work now and maybe too much work for you to do on a daily basis with all the other problems schizophrenia brings.
There’s no shame in realizing you can’t be what and who you were before schizophrenia but it might help to accept it. Like I said, I hate to be pessimistic but our self care is not as great as it used to be along with the other problems schizophrenia brings, and we’re not as social as we were except in some cases.