Aside from being worried sick about how many checks are going to cost me overdraft fees tonight at midnight, I am sick of not having any quality of life. I live my days just laying in bed wishing my life was better. I have a pain near where my gallbladder and pancreas are and I"m wondering if I’ll have to have surgery. Always broke, every damn month. I see people on here and on facebook going to restaurants and living it up at concerts and what not…don’t you wish I would stop complaining?
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Maybe make a few small changes in your life that will lead to something better in your life?
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you’re right @77nick77 I keep telling myself to start exercising and to stop smoking…over and over I never do it…fed up with myself.
Start with small goals and build up to bigger goals?
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maybe try a ssri they work
I went three days without alcohol. Ate some nuts. I have some way to go.
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also deleted all my porn, and lasted three days off that.
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I’m not sick of hearing about it. That’s a part of what the forums are for, in my opinion - to commiserate. I am still new to the diagnosis, about a year and a half. It has been a year and a half since I felt like I enjoyed life. I want to change meds but I’m too afraid of what might happen if I do. The cure is better than the disease, but the side effects are still bad.
Nick is right though. If life is not good, we should always be working to change something. A change gives us hope, and it could actually do something. If that doesn’t work, change something else. Always have something on the horizon.
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Glad you are coming back for support. Sending hugs from the Great White North. 
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…and another big squishy Hug from me @jukebox, keep posting and stay with us here, that’s what we are here for-to take care of each other.
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thanks everybody. I am now monitoring the bank account online and the pay still hasn’t come in and it’s past midnight…fears of the government shut down are playing with me that maybe they aren’t going to pay…OFCOURSE they are going to pay. stupid doubt…the good news is that no checks have come in for overdraft so we will be able to buy groceries after all !
thank you @anon82948922 @SunLion @Csummers
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Jukebox, time for some tough talk here.
How much do you spend on cigarettes and weed in a month? (you said you smoke both)
How much extra money would you have if you switched to e-cigarettes? Probably enough to go to concerts and restaurants.
I don’t want this thread to degenerate into a weed debate, I know you said it helps your symptoms. But think about the money.
Give ecigs another go.
Anyway, I hope you’re going to feel better. Sorry for the tough talk.
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i wish you would stop complianing that easily…
I am afraid that is what is going to happen to a friend of mine . He has schizophrenia and it is very hard for him to just enjoy life. Especially in the present. He is either dwelling over the past or worrying about his future. I wish I could do something
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@everhopeful none…I’m out of money completely after buying groceries for the month. not one penny goes to weed because friends come over and know my plight so they smoke me out for free…sorry to disappoint…today is day one without cigs and it looks like this will be good for me because I am broke on pay day…
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You need the fixins for a steak dinner???
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You got a grill can you grill?
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Dude I’m sorry, play some gigs maybe man?
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Hey jukebox. This was a tough month.
My check didn’t come in until the 3rd because of the weekend. And I got all these extra ER expenses this month.
Hope all you checkes squeak under the wire OK.
ahh a steak dinner eludes my budget…most of the stuff we eat is like tuna casserole or tuna salad sandwiches. canned beans, ravioli…eggs and toast for breakfast…that’s about it this month…no I don’t have a grill darnit. when Angela gets a job that’s one of the first things I want to get…I am a master on the grill!
I wish I could find someplace to play my guitar but then I would have to have a PA system too, so no go there. thanks man.