Just needing to put it out there that I’ve been struggling again since last Friday. Now waiting on a med increase to take hold but it’s only been two days counting today.
I had a shaky Friday/Saturday/Sunday. My paranoid sense of impending doom started really badly on Monday morning. Today I had leafblowers outside my house that I kept thinking were men with chainsaws breaking through my wall to come strangle me.
I took my PRN today, along with my med dose, and am thinking a bit more clearly. But I am so tired of being so unstable. This illness is just so exhausting. Im trying to distract myself too but my ability to concentrate is bad. Maybe I’ll take a nap after lunch just to help pass the time until my husband comes home from work.
I really wish I wasn’t alone today, but it’s not an option for Chris to leave work. He’ll be set up to work remotely sometimes in April, but that’s a long way off.
I take Trilafon currently bumped up, plus 350 mg Lamictal and 10 mg Prozac. Trilafon is my 6th AP.
I had been doing really well for a couple of weeks after the med change, but obviously my AP needed a boost. I am not hearing voices or seeing things, thank goodness, but no med has ever completely quieted my delusions. They hang on and go through cycles of good and bad. Last night I was plagued with nightmares, so that’s prolly why today is shaky. That and waiting out the AP bump. Thankfully my moods are stable on the Lamictal. I had also been in mixed state for about three months until we got that bumped up.
See, you’ve helped me see that even though today is hard, I am doing much better overall. And I haven’t lost insight. Could be a lot worse. Thanks!
