If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a suicide prevention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries.
Hi Im 31 and I also have dealt with paranoid schizophrenia. I hope that u are able to find someone to relate to or if u need support u shouldn’t be afraid to reach out. Giving up/is not the solution. You’re a beautiful person and I am sure no one wants to lose you.
I think when you had your IT job you were more stable. When you were not reducing your meds you were also more stable. The job and medications held your life together. However, you since left your IT job and reduced your meds causing this drastic deteroriation. You are about to go to school for mental health nurse. That will give structure and meaning to your life. It is something to look forward to. Hang in there until your school starts and I suspect you will feel better.
I have deferred the course for a year as I had people telling me I wouldn’t hack it. Plus everything is now online for the foreseeable future due to COVID-19