Hi peeps,
Hope all’s well
For the life of me, I just can’t stop buying stupid shiit.
I don’t know if it’s the illness or just a character flaw, but I’ve been impulsively buying things for the past year.
My pdoc knows, and I’m on a mood stabilizer (which is not really doing anything discernible), and my therapist knows as well.
I’ve filled my room with dumb stuff that can’t be returned, and constantly search Amazon for “deals.”
I drive between two states to TJ Maxx, hunting for bargains on my days off from work.
I’m hurting my relationship with my mom, as she is super worried and upset every time I walk in the house with more bags of shiit.
My most recent purchase, an Apple watch, is ultimately just another failure to curb my spending.
It doesn’t arrive until this coming Monday, and I’m already dreading picking up the package.
…I’m so fuucking dumb.
On the plus side, I did stop myself from buying an automatic soap dispenser by Simplehuman, which was on sale for $32, by the way.
Anyways. Sigh.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
I just want to live a simple life, move far away where there’s no TJ’s or Amazon, and be done with spending.
…Seriously at my wit’s end.
Thanks for reading