Thanks J - I never fine tune my meds without her consent and approval.She gave me specific instructions on what to do
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Ive been running 5k a day, a few days a week. Its doing me good. I feel great for it.
Now, I want to direct some of my fitness fanaticism into volunteering, but I really need to find some place to volunteer.
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@Twangā¦Best of Luck. Donāt give in. I gave up the cigs a year ago and Im feeling great. Just stick with it, distract yourself and maybe if you want to offset the desire to smoke, try drinking a diet soda, maybe diet coke.
Iāve read about that kind of thing. I think they call it WOOFing? It is where young people live and work on farms for a while. They are usually given nothing more than an allowance to support themselves while they are on the farm. I thought about doing it once. Good luck with your adventure.
I am improving my life by getting my bachelorās degree. Otherwise, I will be exercising more either at the school gym (which is kind of old and mediocre) or at the nice gym in town. This summer I have not been exercising as much as I should. I will continue reading the trilogy that I started last semester.
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that is cool, fresh air, nature, the best cure for most things.
take care
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currently just hit 72 hours without a cigarette with nicarette gum. I go to the gym and do bodybuilding stuff, I am pretty built. I had been doing powerlifting for a long time and just recently left that gym due to not wanting to powerlift, as it is bad for the joints and back, and the people there were ridiculous and disliked me. Some drama went down and got me kicked off that gyms competitive lifting team a while ago. I go to the YMCA and workout with old friends from grade school now. Theyāre bodybuilders and workout to look like superheroes, I am joining that boat and working out to get bigger and symmetrical now.
Aside from the nicaratte and bodybuilding, I am a full time student, as I have repeatedly said before and it says so on my profile. I am just relaxing and working out this summer, quitting smoking and getting ready for another year of all Aās, I did it last year so I have to do it again for the next two years. Then graduate school will be challenging, I might just get a masters and be a social worker if I am not in good enough condition to enter a Psy D program. I want to be a practicing psychologist, particularly with juvenile delinquents or criminals. That or I want to evaluate people. I also want to become a doctor in psychology in order to prove to myself that I can master life with schizophrenia- staying on medications and learning about the illness has already made me a different person, I hope to become great instead of good by the age of thirty. I am 21 now and will be a junior this fall.
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Well, youāve got your work cut out for you. Maybe youāll beat the odds and accomplish all you want to. It would be quite an accomplishment and would really feel good for you.
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Iām taking a class: Introduction to Psychosocial Rehabilitation. It starts in August.
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For decades I just drifted, not caring about much of anything. Whatever happened just happened. The past few years though Iāve starting thinking about improving things. Motivation is terribly difficult for me to maintain but Iām working on that.
Iāve been computer programing, learning to create applications and games. Itās something Iāve always wanted to do. I also try to keep up with the news. I like being informed about whatās going on in the world.
One thing that I enjoy is moderating on this forum. I feel like Iām doing something productive that helps people. I think itās making me a better person and teaching me to deal with people in a more respectful way. I appreciate the opportunity @SzAdmin has given me. Itās very fulfilling work.
What I really need to start on is improving my physical health. Iāve let my physical condition decline terribly. Iāve got a slew of ailments that really need to be addressed. I do want to live to an old age and to accomplish that Iām going to need to take care of things.
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I can hold a grudge. I mean, I can REALLY hold a grudge. And weāve had some problems the last couple years where I may not be out of place to hold a grudge. Except that it twists me up and leaves me feeling like crap. Weāre in a new home in a new town with new people. Trying to let go of old things and start each day with a positive attitude. Keep having to remind myself to not fall into the old habits.
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if i could spend some time downstairs, that would b a vast improvement as right now i am constantly in my room. not so bad for a moody teenager but not so good for a 40 year old woman. today is the first day i spent some time downstairs in ages. i cleaned the kitchen and ate my sandwich in there and my lunch. my mum came over and weeded the patio for me. i should b able to do these things myself and i get so angry that i donāt have the fight in me to get my arse into gear. since the haldol was raised iāve taken a huge step backwards. just waiting for it to come down now as i lowered the dose on tuesday. it should take about two weeks. then iām hoping my motivation will return and my life will improve a bit. fingers crossed. xxx
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Haldol absolutely kicks me in the arse and then some. Youāve automatically earned major bragging rights if youāre able to do more than sleep on a higher dose of that stuff. Give yourself some credit.
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I do that at home alreadyā¦can I volunteer to myself? 
Right now I am improving my life by cleaning years of clutter. Itās astronomicalā¦ and I made some interesting finds.
A shoebox way back under the bed with dried beans and ancient cigarettes in it with evidence of a mouse nest.
Ancient writings of my Mom showing my 6 week checkup weight at 11-11 ! and a note saying my first airplane flight was on flight 666ā¦ on top of an even older photo of Mom in a Masonic lodge Order of the Rainbowā¦
Then a note to myself in college reminding me to write a girl who was studying to be a CIA agentā¦
I am trying to complain less and am reading the Complaint Free World book. My friend who died of esophageal cancer a couple of weeks ago really advocated it and my friend really did seem to bear his illness pretty patiently considering the amount of pain he had.
I thought I would check it out and started this week by switching a coin from pocket to pocket every time I voiced a complaint. I have just been doing it for about 4 days now but I have begun to notice that I donāt get fatigued as easily and have fewer tension headaches. I donāt know if I will ever go 21 days without complaining but I figure I can certainly try to kvetch less.
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Iām going back to school starting this month. I wanted to pursue an Associate in Science degree, and I wanted to go for the Psy D also. I also wanted to become a practicing psychologist. Losing confidence in myself, wish me luck! I canāt seem to do anything with myself tonight, do I really think I can help someone else? Well perhaps itās possible! Iām not confident that my brain is functioning well enough to pursue my goals, but Iām going to try.
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Iām planning on going back to college.
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Iām finally making progress in that room of mine that has been a thorn in my side for the last 14 years. Iām learning to accept the fact that Iāve got to say goodbye to all my stuff that got destroyed in a power struggle to control me through emotional blackmail.
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I have myself on a strict reading regiment. I have two types of books. The first is just for enjoyment. It is stuff like scifi, fantasy, and I have to admit a little romance. Right now Iām reading Dune by Frank Herbert.
Then I have what I call my āserious books.ā I decided to focus on the great classics of Literature and most impactfull books on Philosophy. I switch those off with books on Zen Meditation. I need the Zen books to keep me inspired to meditate. Next Iām going to read Critique of Pure Reason by Kant. Iām a little afraid of it to be honest.
I donāt watch that much television anymore. To be honest I donāt really miss it. With that said, I think iāll go watch a little television.
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I believe that different practices work for different people.
I found the less that I worried about trying to better myself the more I did so naturally, causally and without realizing I was.
Itās always good to give something new a go and it might just be that experience in nature and getting to know the animals on the farm that might pull your mind away from worries enough to help get that final leash back on it again.
As for SZ: As some people (and docs) said here years ago - My issues werenāt necessarily out of control but rather just anxiety after coming to realization how strange life is and all of the Rabbit-Hole diving that follows.
Once I learned to accept the situation and āenjoy the rideā I began realizing how many artists, writers, fortune tellers and such came upon the same reality disassociation but choose to take it in their stride and set up lemonade stands with all of the lemons being served. =)
I am trying to simplify my life. We cannot live with nothing. So with luxury items like refurbished laptop PC, and 3G smartphone is more than enough. I have transferred ownership of my car and motorcycle to my younger sister. Consolidated all my bank accounts to two bank.
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