I spent 22 and a half years with my dad and it has caused me to be hypervigilant to the ptsd because he was violent. Now I can picky up peoples energies like if they’re sad and sometimes what about. Or their bodynamic langauge. Even over the phone I can sense certain stuff. I think I’m like this because I had to anticipate my dad’s violence.
So are you hypervigilant or sensitive to people’s energies for various reasons?
I think I’m generally really sensitive to things and quite fearful in general. I know that alot of ‘normal’ people could be able to do it but the reasons I do it is because of my dad. I’m not sz at moment but did have that diagnosis in the past. I don’t think all my psycosis in the past has anything to do with my ptsd but I’m not a doctor so yeah. I think they’re just clutching at straws.
I started out as psychotic depression, then BPD, then PTSD with psychosis, then schizophrenia. I think that’s the order. Either way, meds were the same regardless of label.
Same here. But I don’t know I think I’m just going to write down everything that’s happened to me in the last 2 and a half years (my first break). Everyone has different opinions and as hard as it is to admit I think I may have sz or Sza. But my psycologist says that I don’t have some symptoms that sz do and he told me about them. And I’m like inear my head shot I secretly do have that
For example initiating tasks I find hard to do and he says I dont have that but I do. I didn’t say anything though cause I thought he might just think that I’m saying it to pretend.
At the moment I don’t believe I’m psychotic as you would know. But I do believe I have been in the past.
I don’t have PTSD but cuz of paranoia I used to spend a lot of unhealthy time watching people closely and trying to anticipate their movements. That hypervigilance lingers and comes back when I’m sick.
That sounds alot like me. I started off with bpd then depression with psychotic features then bpd again then sz then ptsd with psychotic features but I don’t think it’s ptoday with psychotic features as I believe that the psychosis had nothing to do with the ptsd. I’m writing pdoc a letter about everthing that has happened
I think it’s not so much their energy I observe, but their body language and their voice. My mother was always upset about something growing up, so I learned to watch her every move so I could decide what I should be doing to make her less upset. Now, I do this with everyone. It’s exhausting.