Yes, schizoid…
Sure just wanted to clear that up 
I’m sorry for your wife. She probably needed a therapy too
Not at all. Borderline emotional processing is just terrifying. It’s frightening, almost unbearable to live with, as the BPD person or as the ones around them.
I don’t have borderline coping mechanisms anymore, but the way the emotions work in the background never seems to fully go away. I feel terrible for people suffering from it because I know how scared and miserable they feel so much of the time.
Thanks Rhuby 
Always so compassionate.
(Have you thought about psychiatrist’s career maybe?)
I thought I really wanted to do that for a while! But I worry I would get too wrapped up in it. Sad stories make me sad, too; I worry my depression would defeat me totally.
My personality was never diagnosed. (It would be to horrible to witness.)
Based on the Millon Multiaxial Inventory Test I have avoidant, schizotypal and depressive personality types.
These all fit me perfectly.
I have no personality disorder dx, only bipolar disorder II.
I read somewhere borderlines gravitate towards narcissists. Interesting that this rings true for you.
I hope you feel better 
I’m towards everything wrong. 