I get a lot of depressive symptoms so I can relate. My antidepressant works quite well but it is my 5th one. Took a lot of trial and error to find it. I’m not happy at the moment though. I’ve got brain damage and I’ve felt people have been conspiring against me today, especially my treating team. Have needed 2 lots of my prn AP just to get by. Been irritable all day. Sorry I shouldn’t dump this on you seeing as you’re not feeling your best. In short it may be that you need to find the right AD like I did.
No I’m not happy but I’m not really sad either. I mean I’m kind of sad, but look at what’s going on around us, there’s a lot to be sad about. Of course there’s a lot to be happy about too, so… I don’t know, maybe my meds aren’t where they should be.
Maybe a some years of therapy can help you. If you can’t be happy at least you shoudl be content with your unhappiness /neutral state/apathy(which one describes you most? )
After one years with this psycholog, and almost 3 years doing therapy I still find it useless. But I’ve noticed a change in my thoughts and things that used to bother me don’t so much.
I think the point of therapy is in the long run. After a few years it will show results