My brother and sister are around 19 and 24 and sometimes I wish they got sz too so my parents would know it wasn’t my fault I got it, it was their genes. Also maybe they would care more if more than one of us is sick.
My brother has it, much worse than I do. Poor guy has zero insight.
It actually made it worse for me when I started getting treatment, because my mom thought I should just suck it up and deal with it on my own, like my brother does. But now that I’m actually doing well on medication, and he is living in a condemned house that has been fortified to withstand an acopalypse, she realizes that there is no shame in seeking treatment.
My Grandmother on my Mom’s side of the family had paranoid schizophrenia. She was high functioning, but still ended up committing suicide. One of my Uncles on my Dad’s side of the family has hebephrenia, and he is not high functioning. He’s on SSI, and he makes me sad because I’ve been told that he was like me at first, but then got much worse over time, so he might be my future. He also goes around laughing and mumbling to himself a lot, like me, so I might end up like him. I’ve tried having conversations with him, and he just goes way off track from what we started talking about, and soon I have no idea what he is even talking about. It is just a jumble of words eventually.
My sister just got married and I was too psychotic to go to the wedding. It’s embarrassing because her in laws are aware- they don’t know exactly how bad it is. They think it’s because I was “abusing adderall” but it wasn’t the adderall it just mAde me more psychotic without an AP. But her in law talked about having an uncle that was schizophrenic… it sucks. It’s one of those conversations where it’s meant to make me feel not as bad but in fact it’s insulting bc I used to be so high functioning and had a personality people liked. Now I’m just a horrible anecdote. Ok I forgot what I was gunna say, I have adhd, so if this is impertinent I apologize.