Eleven years ago today, my dad died, my mom had a breakdown, and I was left effectively in charge of my younger siblings, sick grandmother, and suicidal mother. It really sucked. I have a lot of trouble every year around this time. My dad and I were best friends who did everything together. When he died, everything about my life and personally became radically different. I miss how hopeful and carefree I used to be. I would greatly appreciate it if nobody fights today, and everyone can just be chill.
Your dad would be proud of all that you’ve accomplished in the past eleven years. 
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I’m sorry for your loss,
And the trauma that ensued.
You’re a super strong lady that is coping very well,
I agree with @Moonbeam, your father would be proud.
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@Ninjastar what a very beautiful, compelling yet unfortunate message. I am sorry to hear that this time of the year is difficult for you. I cannot speak for others but most certainly for myself and say that, I personally would not have succeeded let alone survived what you have described. I am sending you a virtual hug from London, and despite how difficult it may be, I hope you realise just how much you supported your family and how far you have come.
God Bless
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Thank you for sharing, Ninja. Reading just a small part of your story is inspirational to so many of us who’ve struggled to function. I’m sure you dad would be proud.
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I’m sorry @Ninjastar, I’m here for you today. Wouldn’t have gotten involved with the drama if I had seen this
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I’m so sorry for your loss and struggles.
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dads are great my dad was amazing and it was sad when he left us but i always say that he didnt really leave us, he is still here with us in our hearts and watching us from up above, its the only way i could cope with it, this way he is not really gone xxx
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Sorry to create more work for you. A year after a friends older brother committed suicide I started crying in middle school class. Completely understand that certain days are tough.
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I’m sorry, @Ninjastar .
Losing your father, especially when you were close, is devastating. And to have it happen at 18-years old. On one hand you’re going through trauma, but on the other hand there’s no time to grieve because of the responsibilities that fell upon you.
I lost my father 29-years ago. I was almost 25-years old, but I was devastated. I was also close to my father. He was my rock, and, like you, he gave me the opportunity to dream.
This may be of no solace, but its been my experience that as the years go by I see the anniversary as a time to reflect on how lucky I was to have had my father in my life. A celebration of the happy times we spent together.
On this solemn day I hope that the spirit of your father will fill your heart with peace and love. 
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I’m not sure what I can say, but I’m so sorry for you loss and that you’re having a hard time. You are a wise and kind soul and I know your father is very proud of you @Ninjastar. Hope you are able to feel better soon.
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Thank you to everyone for helping me to get through yesterday. I’m feeling much better today. I appreciate everyone who helped make it a drama-free day 
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