Now that’s weird sentence (ungrammatical) but it simply means things change. And someone who is doing bad NOW sometimes will do good LATER. And the converse is true too.
On these forums we see each others lives, good and bad. But we are only seeing a slice of each others lives. Obviously we can’t see the future. But people come and go on here. The lives we see of each other for a few months (or in my case several years) does not define us.
The reason I’m saying this is because of what a newcomer posted last night about her father. I hope she doesn’t mind me using her father as an example, I certainly do not mean any disrespect. But she said he functioned fine for 38 years but he recently relapsed. And it got me worrying and wondering: I’ve been out of the hospital for 25 years. Call it fear, call it, being realistic, call it selfish but I know I could still relapse. I’ve always known this.
People think I’m doing fine. And I really am doing fine in a lot of ways. But you’re only seeing a slice of my life. I’ve been through some BAD times where I was doing worse than many people. Drug addiction almost took me out. And I have to fight this disease on a daily basis just like anyone else. Right now I think I see a train wreck coming but I’m not really sure. I will just keep plugging along and hope I’m wrong.
But it’s the same with you guys too. We are only seeing a PERIOD of your life on here. You may be doing bad now but later you may make great strides like I’ve seen many times. “The loser now, will be later to win”. You know what I mean now, right?
People on here move on and do good…or bad… And occasionally they will be gone a long time only to come back after getting a job or a boyfriend or girlfriend. This is a two dimensional board. Not everybodies present state is indicative of whole life. Enough of this. I have to go watch the “Fresh Prince of Bel Air” now.
Peace out.
Nick