I dunno, yesterday they said that you can be agnostically inclined but you cant be an atheist. Im straight up Charles Darwin, so that pissed me off. I mean I do drink a little bit now, its 6am and i woke up at 4am so im having a beer right now to make me get some sleep, but I control my drinking- I mean yeah, my meds make alcohol feel stronger, but I havent been drunk since late February. I drive my college age friends around. They’re tipsy by the time I show up.
There are some â– â– â– â– â– â– up people there and they want me to come at the same time every â– â– â– â– â– â– â– day. Im not exactly â– â– â– â– â– â– up right now. I am afraid of relapsing with liquor on my 21st in a month, but other than that my drinking is pretty tame and just 1-3 beers.
Do you guys thing I even need to go? I mean I could have used it a year ago back when I was carb loading on liquor every night and then training the next morning (I shit you not) but I just dont feel like the alcoholic I used to be. I mean yeah, I used to me Alky McAlky, but now I just have a drink to help me sleep.
If I had a drink last night I wouldnt have woken up at â– â– â– â– â– â– â– 4am, I can tell you that. I mean I have â– â– â– â– to do, Im on a competitive organized powerlifting team now, I have to sleep well and do what the coach says, waking up at 4am is â– â– â– â– â– â– â– â–
I see my brilliant psychologist today, he’s super atheist and also elitist. I bet he will be like “the ■■■■why are you going to AA? You have like one beer a day”
This is all because I almost binged on xanax and beer on the night before my two hardest finals. Well no I DID binge on both but made myself puke it all up and felt tranquilized as â– â– â– â– , drank a â– â– â– â– ton of coffee and made an A on one and an A+ on the other. But my friends and I are notorious for functioning while on drugs and alcohol. My graduating class from my high school was the high-functioning druggies/alkies class, with me as the stoner/drunk/martial artist and literature expert. My buddy who is a heavy pill popper and alky today was the science wiz tied with my hippie stoner/lsd user friend.
We were all high when we took our AP/IB exams. I got 4/5 on all of mine and my friends did the same. I was schizophrenic and high. I get bonus points for tripping twice as hard.