I dunno, yesterday they said that you can be agnostically inclined but you cant be an atheist. Im straight up Charles Darwin, so that pissed me off. I mean I do drink a little bit now, its 6am and i woke up at 4am so im having a beer right now to make me get some sleep, but I control my drinking- I mean yeah, my meds make alcohol feel stronger, but I havent been drunk since late February. I drive my college age friends around. They’re tipsy by the time I show up.
There are some ■■■■■■ up people there and they want me to come at the same time every ■■■■■■■ day. Im not exactly ■■■■■■ up right now. I am afraid of relapsing with liquor on my 21st in a month, but other than that my drinking is pretty tame and just 1-3 beers.
Do you guys thing I even need to go? I mean I could have used it a year ago back when I was carb loading on liquor every night and then training the next morning (I shit you not) but I just dont feel like the alcoholic I used to be. I mean yeah, I used to me Alky McAlky, but now I just have a drink to help me sleep.
If I had a drink last night I wouldnt have woken up at ■■■■■■■ 4am, I can tell you that. I mean I have ■■■■ to do, Im on a competitive organized powerlifting team now, I have to sleep well and do what the coach says, waking up at 4am is ■■■■■■■■
I see my brilliant psychologist today, he’s super atheist and also elitist. I bet he will be like “the ■■■■ why are you going to AA? You have like one beer a day”
This is all because I almost binged on xanax and beer on the night before my two hardest finals. Well no I DID binge on both but made myself puke it all up and felt tranquilized as ■■■■, drank a ■■■■ ton of coffee and made an A on one and an A+ on the other. But my friends and I are notorious for functioning while on drugs and alcohol. My graduating class from my high school was the high-functioning druggies/alkies class, with me as the stoner/drunk/martial artist and literature expert. My buddy who is a heavy pill popper and alky today was the science wiz tied with my hippie stoner/lsd user friend.
We were all high when we took our AP/IB exams. I got 4/5 on all of mine and my friends did the same. I was schizophrenic and high. I get bonus points for tripping twice as hard.